Ah!
I was so dead tired over the weekend
Attending functions are not as fun as I expected
Hahaha
Now I understand why people were always complaining when I envy them on business trip

Anyway
I joined DarDar & his family to Batam to attend the opening ceremony of the Pang Association
It was grand
A very warm welcome for us at the Ferry Terminal & at the hotel



We then went to attend our welcome dinner at the restaurant
Kinda bored before the dishes were served
So we played with cameras






The food was alright
& we headed back to hotel at around 1130pm

Next day was horrible
Had to wake up at 730 to eat breakfast!
My eyes were -_- when I was at the cafe
After that
We went to the venue to do some praying to the ancesters
As we sat down for lunch
I noticed something
I realised that almost everyone looks alike
I asked DarDar
"EH! Why all look like your grandpa?"
"The Pang blood flows in almost everyone whose surname is Pang"
"HUH! Then like that I also look abit like your mother loh?"
(DarDar's mum share the same surname as me...)

Hmmm...how interesting

The grand dinner was held that night





After 2 days of attending the functions
We finally got to sightsee several places
To this new bridge that connect 6 small islands
& a big temple


Not much lah
I was so tired that my eyes cant open loh
x_X

Anyway
It was still a pleasant trip afterall
Got to see the activities that my in-laws are taking part in
& then KPO abit join them along
BWHAHAHAHAHAH

Maybe not

Hmmm...
Mum recieved a call from Hong Kong
Saying that Uncle (Mum's elder brother) is on the verge of his life
His lung cancer* cells had spreaded all the way to his brain
& he fell into coma last week
Although he'd awaken now
Doctor said his chances are slim

Mum was abit panick about the whole situation
& applied leave immediately without checking if the air tics are available
Dad was being a fuss, as usual, saying all the unreasonables out of the unexpected
Bro is always adding fuel to the fire
& I have to resolve the burning fire & explaining the optimistic possible outcome of the unexpected

So now
I tried to put everything to a temporary halt
Becuase aunt said it's not that jialat as what another aunt said
So Mum is gonna postpone her approved leave
Being that
I'd requested my dear friend to assist getting me air tic as soon as possible
I may have to accompany my Mum as well
Which I do hope it doesnt fall on the days when I have to register for my course personally

On top of everything
I've gotten my grab-bag ready

I'm now on standby mode
Awaiting for the call

*PS: I dont remember my Uncle was diagnosed with lung cancer...is it because of negligence of the doctor that no follow-up was done and apparently caused such situation that messed up everyone's mental wellness?

What is with the people today?
Every bloody asshole I met is fucking rude to me
As if I'm an idiot to be least bothered

While I was busy working at the farm
A postman came and asked me to sign on the registered mail
As I scribbled my initial
He asked:'What is your name?'
Me: [my name]
He:'You malay ah?'
Me:'Huh? Do I look like one?'
He:'Oh no no... just need your name to appear on the paper..'

Yah whatever
Because my dialect name in Malay means Faith

Then at clinic
Got this patient's mum called & demanded a MC
She:'Just now my son came to see the doctor, how come you all never give the MC?'
Me:'What's your son's name?'
She:[her son's name]
Me:'Hang on while I check....... Oh, Dr Chow didnt write the MC'
She:'What? But he said he is to be given 2 days MC'
Me:'Maybe the doctor forgot to write... will the MC be for today & tomorrow or tomorrow & the day after?'
She:'Of course tomorrow & the day after! My son went to school today!'
Me:'Ok, I go check with the doctor'

Knn
As if I know your son went to school today
& as if I wanna eat your son's MC like that

Me:'When are you to collect it? Maybe tomorrow since we're about to close?'
She:'You just ask the doctor to write & I will pick it up when I'm free. Who am I speaking too?'
Me:[my name]
She:'Sorry?'
Me: [MY NAME]
She:'Ok bye'

What the hell
I hate it when people enquire about my name over the phone when I'm trying to help them
It just means that I'm not trustworthy into my work
& I will lay shit on their face
Which, of coz, if they are smart
They can complain me right away

But hey
You're messing with the wrong lady
If I dare tell you my name
I guarantee my work is done to its best

Wanna shoot me?
I think I have much more to bombard

Anyway
I'm so irritated with people doubting me
I make sure they die bitterly if one strand of my nostril hair breaks

Just got back from Farmmart
Damn full of supper
I ordered 10 pieces of chicken wings
Thinking that the guys will eat alot
In the end
Dean only ate 1
-_-

While we were happily eating chit-chatting
Got a stray husky came to us!
I was like 'What the fuck?!'

I'd always wanted to get a husky
But the housing regulations doesnt allow
Neither will my Mum allow in the 1st place
& I like husky so much that I can go crazy over it
& then I see a STRAY husky at farmmart feeding on the chicken wing bones that I just sucked on

Double WHAT THE FUCK!

You know how beautiful a husky is or not?
You know how gorgeous a husky is or not?
& God damn it it's a STRAY?!

Dean said that it had been abandoned due to the new housing regulation
DarDar added saying that he noticed there're many husky adoptions at SPCA

I looked at the poor guy
It kept licking his leg
& I observed it...
There's a big wound at his hind thigh!
Fresh bloody wound

My heart ached
But I'm helpless

Understanding my lust for a husky but not being able to afford
Here comes a free husky that I'm unable to help

Sorry mate
I could only visit farmmart more often to feed you with chicken wing bones
The next time I will order 20 pieces

For the past few days
I am very happy to spend time with my friends
Especially Lizt whom flew over from Hong Kong to Singapore to attend my solemnization

My ROM was abit unexpected
DarDar's family was late due to jam at causeway
& so it was delayed 30mins
But all went well after that







I was really grateful that all those invited came
& I hope they love the dishes served

At night
Me, Michelle, Lizt, Jas & Ash went zouk
My 1st time to Zouk


Not bad la
But I think I still prefer MOS
I just feel that the music there sounds better
The R&B sounded abit un-rockable
The House was good but none was dancing

I took the car out for the night
& my left leg was fucking tired on the clutch
From my house to Bukit Timah, to Bugis, to Tiong Bahru, to Pioneer and back home
Bwahaha
1/2 tank gone

Anyway
Now I'm officially Mrs Pang
But I still feel the same as the same old me
Ha!

Just got back from a drinking session with friends
As it's our day on this Sat
His friends wanna sabo him
Wanting to make him drunk
& apparently
They succeeded
But DarDar was feeling too unwell that he started shivering
& his friends had to be carried up to my house

Tsk tsk tsk

Now DarDar had concussed
I hope he doesnt puke on the bed!

I AM FUCKING ANGRY!
AS I WAS PARKING THE CAR
THE CAR OPPOSITE MY SLOT ON HIS FUCKING HIGH BEAM
BLINDED ME
I CURSED & SWORE AT HIS INCONSIDERATION
DARDAR RUSHED DOWN THE CAR WANTING TO FIGHT WITH HIM
BUT HE ESCAPED

KANNINA

I COULD HAVE STOP IN FRONT OF HIS CAR
PREVENTING HIM FROM COMING OUT
LYING THAT I CANT REVERSE WITH MY EYES BLINDED
ASKED HIM TO GET OUT OF THE SLOT WITH HIS MIGHT LOH

TAMADE

IF I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT
I SURE DO THAT

I AM JUST SO FUCKING ANGRY ON A DEEPAVALI EVE
& FUCK
I LEFT MY HANDPHONE IN CLINIC

Boss gave me 2 rabbits
>_<
& I have no idea how to keep rabbits as I've been keeping hamsters since young
Looking at the rabbit makes me think it's Koko x 10000000000
It's 100000000 times bigger than my Koko
Abit scary

Luckily DarDar kept rabbit before
Haha
So he's gonna do all the grooming

Skipped work on Friday to go fishing with DarDar, Michelle & Gerald
We went to Raffles Marina at Tuas
& it was so damn beautiful!
Look at the yachts!!!
One of these will be mine one day.... in my next life

As it's around evening
The sunset was extremely pretty too

Of all the fishing sites I'd been
This place is the best

DarDar caught 3 fishes within 15mins
Usually DarDar could only catch 1 fish in 1 hour

Michelle & I went to look at soft coral that had grown along the berth
& one man came over & made friends with us
& invited us to sit on his mini speedboat that was parked at the other side
Being playful
Me & Michelle sat in it
Passed by the lighthouse where DarDar & Gerald were fishing
We waved to them frantically
They were so damn jealous we had a ride out in the sea
Heehee

We fished all the way till 10 plus
& we had about 20 fishes
Dean came later & picked those fishes for his Indian workers

Beside us was a family
Who used nets to catch fish
But they'd scared away all our fishes!!!

Oh anyway
Raffles Marina is a nice place
I must go find an Ang Moh friend who has a yacht there
Hahaha

WAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm so excited!
I'm going Brisbane, Australia in December with DarDar's family
& all expenses paid!

DarDar said it's a wedding gift from his dad
WAHAHAHAHAHA
& we'll be travelling to this farm, Sea World & Warner Brothers Movie World
WAHAHAHAHAHA

I AM ALL SO EXCITED!
I WANNA TAKE PHOTOS WITH MY SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!


DarDar just stared at me when I said I wanna sleep with Spongebob since we'll be spending a night in the theme park resort anyway

=X

I'm totally engrossed with the new PSP game that DarDar downloaded
I am not really a game guru
So I always request for 'brainless' games that I need not think too much about it
While flipping through the catalogue for such 'brainless' game
I chose Spongebob Squarepants: The Yellow Avenger
(Spongebob is already pretty brainless, so I guess the game should be as dumb)

When I started playing, I was immediately hooked
It's so fun that I refused to let DarDar play his Innocent Life

It involves lots of problem solving
But it doesnt requires much brain cells
Which is a very very plus point for me since my brains are no longer active for the past few months

But now I'm stuck in this stage that I cant go anywhere

......................

Cant find walkthrough guides too

I'm gonna finish the whole damn game within next week!
Just pray that my dark eye circles dont appear

I had 2 full day of diahorrea
& I almost died of gastric pain
I kicked DarDar to wake up in the middle of the night
But he's as dead as my dead thunder crab in the kitchen
So I gobbled my dhamotil & antacid to survive
Taught him a lesson the very next morning

I hope I get better soon!
It's been long I last feel like shit

I'm playing around with Facebook
& I found it pretty interesting
BUT
Too many things to play around with
& it's getting me confused

Did I mention that we went to Stanley's solemnization ceremony yesterday?
Geez
It took place damn fast
Within minutes
The couple is Husband & Wife

I'm so excited about mine

Hohohohohoho

Not saying that I'm dying to be Mrs Pang
But the fact that I'd never done such proud moments in front of my family ever
Needless to say in front of his family too
*gasps*

& I hope the slimming tea works!

Ouch
My feet are covered with bristle from the bristleworm!
This is hell man!
THe bristle are so fine that it can poke into the skin anywhere
& you cant take it out coz it's so fine & transparent

I'm limping as I walked!
Somemore I had to attend my friend's solemnization just now
JUST IMAGINE....

Sigh

I drove Dean's wife & kids back home first
& left DarDar behind to play with his friends
& now
DarDar is dead drunk
Now sleeping beside me smelling like Martell

Gosh
It's only 2 more weeks to mine
& I'm still feeling fucking fattttttttttttttttttt

Sigh....
I wish I'm gone again

Recieved my supposedly-good news from NIE
Hesitating the offer due to financial problem

Scholarship not granted
Sigh

I just wanted to try my luck if I could even take up MSc in the 1st place
& so I did
Then I wasnt granted the scholarship
Parents told me to continue studying since I'm able to get in
But I lack of confidence, wondering if I could do it
I donno if I can get the job I want when I graduated AGAIN
Will it be a waste of time, money & effort?

I am very lost

DarDar said his dad could possible help me
But 10K per year is a huge sum! (if I'd calculated that correctly)
I donno how many cycles of reincarnation would it be to repay everyone's kindness

I really donno if I should accept or reject
Accept: for the sake of working in my related fields overseas, where mini job requirement is a MSc
Reject: for the fear that I wont find my desired job again, wasting everyone's time, money & effort and fearing of forced withdrawal due to lousy performance

When fear overwhelms confidence
I'm just a piece of shit

Pictorial summary of my 9 days cast-away in Phuket
=D
Made friends with a group of Vietnameses too!

Enjoy




















Happy moments always end at pub...

Will be back at Phuket sometimes soon!

I'm back!!!!
9 days of no-internet usage & pure island exploration
COOL!

I'm going back soon one day
& explore the other side

I bet main Thailand i.e Bangkok is probably the same
So maybe no needa go so many times
=p

We made friends with a bunch of Vietnamnese
Got to know them when we were bargaining for our items
& day passed
We chatted with one another
& then on the last night before our departure
They brought us to Tiger Disco & have fun
Played fireworks & drank
Way cool!!!!

Dives at Phi Phi Island were fabulous
I saw leopard shark twice!!
& also a giant moray eel that freaked DarDar out
LOL!!!!

Loads of pictures to be uploaded
But meanwhile
I still needa catch sleep

*yawnz*

I'm going to Phuket!
In just 2 more days

Finally I'm out of Singapore
To a place for relaxation
Free my mind from all the stupid nonsensical issues
& be back with a clear piece of mind

=D

I just met Kenneth to borrow his dive computer
It cost SGD$1000!
What the fuck
Must really take care
So scare I spoil it man...
Anyway I'd also wanna learn how to use it
Might probably get a second-hand one when I have money

Ah
Friends are booking for January's Similan Live-Onboard Dive trips already!
I dont even know how my future looks like in 4 months time
Let alone to even see if my bank is still surviving

Speaking of which
I think I'd forgotten to bank in my cheque
Heehee

Alrighty
See you guys next next week
=)

Yesterday was requested to do maintenance check for all the water systems
Total 21 systems
Do until headache
Coz have to collect 3 samples of 5ml water from each system
To test for KH, pH and NO2

For one particular tank
Its NO2 level was 0.5mg/l
The level is indicated by showing how 'pink' the solution is after mixing with reagents
& by stating the result
Boss questioned his doubt

"Show me how you do the test?"
"Like this like that loh"
"Ok.. I just wanna see if it's procedure error or something's wrong with the test kit.. You see, I just tested and it indicated 0.2mg/l"

I looked at his testtube
"Hmm.. it looked like it's between 0.2mg/l & 0.5mg/l"
"Maybe it's the environmental conditions that could have affect the reading. As far as I know, the water had just been changed, so 0.5mg/l is very unlikely..."
I looked at the testtube again
"Eh? Now it looks darker... 0.5mg/l wor"
"Like I said, maybe it's the heat that affect..."
"Maybe loh.. yesterday was quite hot also.. but anyway, the standard level is 0.1mg/l, so it doesnt really matter if it's 0.2mg/l or 0.5mg/l, you still have to do something about it.."

Boss kept quiet
Then his phone rang

I escaped from his inquiries

I thought for a long while
I was very troubled by the readings I had gotten
It seems to me that he didnt believe me at all
Insisted that he's correct

O_o

I told my colleagues
They explained to me & asked me to show Boss the instruction of using the NO2 kit
Instructions say:'Wait for 3 to 5 minutes for results'
I was like "Hey! I'm correct loh!'
Colleague told me just dump that instructions in front of his face
& said that he always insists his way

Oh well
At least for me I know I wasnt wrong
But hard to clarify my 'wrong' due to his insistence

Bleah

Nevermind
Next week I will show him again

I just got back from my hair show
Aiyo.. the make up was so thick!
I got a shock when I removed it
All my cotton pads were orange due to the foundation
Me during my hair preparation
I waited for 2 hours before it's my turn out on the stage
& my contact len dropped once I was out
& i was like 'Oh shit'
But I just pretended nothing happened...

There's a professional model out with us
Her poses were really nice
Sigh
I felt so =(
Getting fat & feeling so inferior
I believe I didnt do so well due to low self-esteem

Anyway
My hair was done
& lotsa photoshoots by professional cameraman

My hair is cut slanted
So one side is shorter than another
=)


Nice mah?

I'm surprised I looked good with smokey eyes makeup
But in close contact
The smokey effect is really scary
However it was a good experience
& now I know what makeup to miss
Heehee

Recently
I feel that I've been treating DarDar abit bad
& I could sense that he isnt feeling good about it too

Everytime I tease him with all the things that should be done that he did
& he'll just looked at me with a -_- face
I tickled him to make him laugh

Maybe
I'm doing it the wrong way
Probably his heart is bleeding
But the artificial laughter covers it

Recently
He's into some kinda trouble
That may cause attendance in court

He isnt doing anything coz he repeated he donno how to do it
while I didnt know how to do it sought ways to do it

View this
Our characters are totally different

Having desperately to help him
I called my friends, SMSed my friends, Msned my friends to find out how
But he was sitting beside me looking at me doing it

I felt abit pissed
coz I'm taking my effort to solve a problem that does not belong to me

I understand that even if he's not my husband-to-be
I would also do it for a simple friend
However
The fact is he is my husband-to-be
He should solve the matter himself then letting the wife-to-be worried

Not saying that he should hide all matters to least make me worry
But share it so I can provide my thinking cap
Since I always have lotsa solutions even as to how to kill an ant effectively

Saying so
Could I have been way too superior controlling him of his way of living?
Or could it just be him that couldnt be slightly changed?

I wondered
If we might end up arguing every day after the rings had been placed on our fingers
Are there gonna be more hidden problems to least make me worried but gained scoldings from me?

I love my DarDar
His love to me is protective
Maybe it's also time for me to protect his protective love

I was cut by a USED sharp needle yesterday during my clinic shift
It was small yet deep
& my blood kept flowing out like tapwater
I guess it'd cut my main tiny blood vessel

I went to wash with running water
Squeeze the blood out
& press with alcohol-swap

What the fuck

I could have contacted all sorts of blood-transmitted infectious disease
if that patient has it all
I told Dr Wong
But Dr Wong didnt offer me any blood screening

In my previous company
Whoever got a cut
Even the slightest cut which blood oozes
Blood screening is needed

So feeling a bit curious
I asked my friend
She encouraged me to go for one despite the offer
& so I did this morning

Now I shall wait for my report

Went to dig mussels just now
& brought back some for DarDar's family to eat
His cousin saw the anoxic mud spitting out
He felt disgusted & suggests everyone throw it away
I heard liao I also feel disgusted

Do you know how mussels survive?
They filter-feed
Of coz the mud is in them!
To eat them, soak them in clear water so as to release the mud
After that, can eat liao!

You think what?
Those at tze char one just pluck & cook without cleaning?

Cant stand urban people
Live the primitive way for a change!
*rolls eyes*

Went BBQ with Michelle & friends at Kranji just now
Had the mussels for the meal
His friends went to catch flower crab & prawn
& it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet & delicious!

I love the butter prawn most
It's buttery-salty but the prawn is sweet

But
Being an environmentalist always have issues regarding this
Overfishing, overharvesting & all sorts of things to profit us
I keep telling her later take out all the prawns how?

Like right now I'm helping my friend in her farm
We are to make fish food for her fishes
We had prawns, roes, fish, squid, mussles, clams, kelp all mixed to produced a 400ml of feed
Imagine we can eat the ingredients for ourselves
I told her some real-life stories of how tuna mariculture is being done
& other facts bt fisheries too

Oh well...

Hey
I forgot to mention
Just now DarDar went fishing at kranji
He caught a sea snake!
His rubbish rod can catch almost all the weird animals that can be found in the water
Now he's to another fishing sites
I wonder what he will bring home next.....

Je suis tres mal

I AM VERY SAD!

I'm being offered an internship in MEXICO
MIND YOU IT'S MEXICO!
& I cant go coz of financial problem
It's a fucking big chance where I can gain experience for 5 weeks
& it cost me USD$2.5K (~SGD$5K)

FUCK!
WHY AM I NOT BORN RICH?!

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My heart is bleeding

We cooked the marbled goby on Friday night for dinner
=x
& this is my 1st time eating this acclaimed-delicate dish

Hmmm... so so only loh
It's just a fish afterall
Just that the flesh is real tender
Not much of the 'fish' taste though

Anyway
It's only $16 instead of the normal $160
Coz we went to have it done at a Tze Char store
Heehee

Had my hair done
Dreaded for a cut desperately
Spent 4 hours to do it
& it's not completed

It's only some hair preparation for my hairshow on 1st October
Gotta do catwalks on a x inch heels
Urgh
Hope I dont fall down

Been busy these few days
Like care-free living afterall
Working in a fisheries farm is my least expected
But I gained related experience about aquarium trades

So much back to my knowledge on Fisheries & Mariculture
& there I gave some short consultation to my friend regarding their processes

Just a lil thought though
Not too much
Until I have the power to open a Environmental Consultation firm myself

HAHAHAHAHA

Well
It's not too bad to dream
At least it has always been my dream
A dream I'm chasing for

Step by step
I guess I'm working on it

Somemore I just applied for a marine research programme in Mexico
If they allow me to join them
That's even another step closer

I guess it really takes lotsa sacrifices to work towards a dream
Whenever I told DarDar about me going somewhere overseas to do my related things
He gave me that kinda look

Probably sounds abit selfish to go ahead in order to realise my own dreams
But I do not wanna die without achieving anything
I guess that's why my JC testimonial wrote me as 'strong-willed' girl

Ah!
We shall see how it goes

I was reading this magazine that says:
3 outta 5 employers complaint about having untalented employees
& it commented that if you find that your work is not supportive & unappreciated
LEAVE

I think I'd made the right choice after 1.5yrs
& i hope it's not too late

It's a hectic day at work today
All the manual work reminded me of my FYP days
But I'm not at all worried about it
Coz I've got the muscle to work on!
Hee Hee

Rushed back home to shower after the day
Smelling totally fresh & sweet due to my bath foam
The odour in the bus turned me off totally

I forgot Tekka is along the journey

All the funny curry powder smell that was smeared at whichever part of the body

*shakes head*

Met Jasinda, Ling & Ash for dinner at Beppu Ramen
It's Ling's birthday
Ate the hot ramen & chatted over the table
& then went to C.A.N cafe for another chit-chat

DarDar went fishing
& he caught a soon hock!!

KNN
It's so fucking big that he went all crazy about
& KNN
It's so fucking big that it looked so fucking UGLY!!!
& KNN
My friend Dean kept tell me it tastes fucking nice

KNN
How come big ugly fishes always taste nice?

I believe it's how evolution works
When you think that a guy is fucking fat & ugly, he's actually very kind-hearted
So....
Hmmmmm

Anyway
It's gonna be deep-fried tomorrow
Lalalalalalalala

Soon Hock at Tze Cha stall
I wonder if the chef is gonna cook it fabulous

"Hey Dar, shall we go back & take a look at Skippy?"
"Ah? No need lah.. should be fine.."

The night passed and we returned to DarDar's house in the afternoon
Feeling abit weird as there's no sound coming the the 3-storey cage

Usually when we're back
Skippy will greet us at the cage
Scratching the mesh with his paws
Wanting us to carry it out
I looked in
A black patch of 'thing' at the bottom
I slapped the cage
Nothing moved
I took a closer look

My 6th sense was right

Skippy laid dead
Its hind leg was caught between the metal bar
& it looked like his struggle to get out of the bar has failed

I shouted for DarDar who was entering the room
He was shocked
Both of us looked at the dead Skippy

DarDar tried to take Skippy out
But its leg was really stuck
We believed that's how Skippy had met this freak accident

Its body was still soft yet cold
As we stroke on its gentle fur
We were hours late

My tears rolled down
DarDar cried too

Skippy was a handsome unique chap
It came to us when it's 4 months old
It has a chipped ear that makes him look like he's a pirate
But it was only with us for less than a year
At times I told DarDar to spend some time with Skippy
But I guess it's been too late

DarDar wrapped the body
And brought it for cremation

Really sad
Looking at the flames engulfing Skippy
I see that it will probably look the same when I'd stopped breathing

Love you, Skippy
Although you're not mine
But the moments you'd given us was indeed a pleasant joyful one
You'd grown so much within this year
& I love you looking at me with your innocent look

We're sorry to have neglected you
I wish you have a better home up there
Do come back to visit us

You're deeply missed

Love,
Cyn & Kel

My car was up to lorry AGAIN yesterday
ZZZZZZZZZZ
It's causing me too much trouble that I'm starting to feel it's more of a nuisance than pleasure

But probably coz it's an old car

Bleah

Anyway
It was over
& it's DarDar's job to do all those car problems too

I just washed my hands clean whenever it dies
Hohohohohohohohohohohohhohohohoho

DarDar was crazy
He woke up early this morning
Just to order MacDonald's breakfast
-_-

My internet connection is fucking slow lately!
I cant watch my Japanese drama in peace
Urghhhhhh

Oh
I'm going to a BBQ later
=D

I am going to Donno island*!
Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I will be diving
& diving
& diving
& diving
& diving

Wooohoooooooooo

I can finally step beyond Malaysia

I am so happy
Cant wait for that week to come

So excited that I cant sleep!

=D

*FYI, Donno Island = Phuket Land.
'Pu Ji Dao' = Donno

Ok I'm lame
But at least I am still good at it at this age

The so called 'Tian Shen Wo Cai Bi You Yong' phrase is so wrong
It's starting to make me lose myself

I once read an article about this guy
Who graduated from his Major
But was not able to get a related job
Worked in another industrial field
Not as happy as he expects
Keep looking for another
Got rejected due to no experience
He sank into depression
And almost lost his mind

I think I'm beginning to be like him

I met up with my old classmate this morning
She brought me to her mariculture farm
Looks like she's enjoying her work there
Feeding fishes, breeding corals
She also mentioned another friend of ours
Who's working for in an animal concern group

I had a deep sigh in my heart

They have a job of their passion

But why not me?

I've got everything!
A driving licenses to get me round the land by wheels to get specimens and whatever
A diving licenses to get me underwater for specimens or surveys or researches
A First Aid Certification to keep people alive in case of emergency
A Bachelor degree that specifies my field when it's now a big concern about environmental impacts

I dont think I'm being ambitious
Because all I've gotten above is not what I'd expected for the future
It just came gradually as I would wanna venture into this path

Seems wrong

DarDar told me real-life stories like Bill Gates
He didnt have any IT qualification
And a school drop-out like him is so successful now

My reply to him was
"That's why I'm such a failure coz I've got my degree"

I could sense DarDar's virtual slap on my face

I'm sorry
I just cant take it anymore
And of coz I understand I cant go on thinking about all this sad facts
But I think I'd become the boy mentioned above

I am depressed

I hope a short getaway can loosen my thoughts

Please, bring me out somewhere

What the fuck?

Yesterday was so sunny & hot
That the very moment I stepped out of the car at Bottle Tree Village
I almost felt I melted
& I told myself that I'll swim 20 laps to shield the excessive float around my waist

But now?
The sky looks so grey
In fact
It drizzled

Kanasai

It seems like the weather is also 'working'
Monday to Friday pour
Saturday & Sunday shine

Nothing much happened yesterday
Just the urge to go out somewhere
So we went to Bottle Tree Village at Sembawang

Fuck la
Thought very nice
But it's just only 3 trees of such species
& a very big empty restaurant which only operates at evening

So we went to Sembawang Park
Loaded with people
Swimming, BBQ-ing, fishing

Intolerant about the heat
We headed to Causeway Point
Nothing much to shop
Had Sakae Sushi for dinner
& off to work I went

Dean & DarDar came look for me for supper after my clinic work
Headed to Farmmart
OH gosh
Ordered Lala & Sotong
Damn yummy

Now I crave for tze-cha
Must find one day eat nice food

It's 9plus in the morning
I am early
Reflex action for the past 1.5 years
Indeed a bit hard to knock habit off

BUt it's ok
I made breakfast for DarDar just now
Heehee

Guess I'm back to sleep in 10mins time =)

I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder why everyone says I'm friendly except my stupid shitty boss

Anyway
It's so over
It's so long long time ago
So heck the company
& let it go & die

*pui*

Like I'd said
I dont believe I didnt do well
That's why I fought for my existence
But the limit to it is
Never stay too long to fight for something that will never occur
Take an alternative and start all over again

That's why I'm here

Emo Friday

Last day at work
Yet it was full of sadness
Rather than anger

Called it impulsive?
Guess not either

My department people are not aware of me leaving
Bet my Farewell email had shocked each of them

My team mates, dept people and Director gave me a farewell gift
I was caught by surprise
Yet with uproaring emotions

Nearing the end of the day
I broke down in tears

Not the regretful type
But the I'm-so-gonna-miss-you-guys tears

Sigh

If only my effort was being recognised

Anyway
It's all over

My new life starts again
Wish me luck

Alice had a pack of keropok fresh from Terrenganu
& I wanted a small portion of it
So I went to her house to collect it
at 10pm

DarDar drove me over
& then suddenly
My Honda Civic broke down

.................................

It seems that the alternater (or whatever you call it) broke down
Couldnt start at all
So I called Er ge down for assistance

Er Ge came within 10 minutes
Reversed his car to face our car so he could connect his battery to our battery via the 'kiap kiap'
Traffic was abit heavy
& it was pretty much a challenge

After testing
Er Ge confirmed that Honda Civic is dead
Need to tow

As we were talking about it
A Mitsubishi Lancer stopped behind us
DarDar & I thought 'Kaoz, which idiot also have his car spoilt?'
Then we realised it's Jack

Haha
Car broke down also got supporter

Er Ge then left since there's nothing much he could do
But thanks alot for coming for assistance

While we waited for the tow service
Dean came
Our next supporter
& we chatted till the tow came

After that
Dean drove us to NUS where he needed to fetch his workers home
& we had a short drink
We chatted alot of ghostly stories
Until my hair all stood up

It was around 230am we reached home

& today
I never go work
Fever

Dr Chow offered me 2 days MC but I could only take one
Tomorrow must rush work

Sigh
Why before I leave must do so many shits?

Entering the last week of work
& it sucks!

Alot of things to work on
& alot of things that I've been working on that I dont bear losing them

BUT

I cant take it anymore

The more I do, the blur-er I get
The more I do, the more it doesnt make sense
The more I do, the more stupid I find myself have been

The End

A colleague gave me a farewell gift
It's a handphone chain she got from Japan
With sparkling cat's eye stones

I was kinda touched

I only liased with her for several times
& she told me she felt sad that I'm going

Sigh
Everyone tells me that

Too bad you are all not my boss

Boring

It's Sunday
DarDar abandoned me behind while I was still sleeping to go fishing
AGAIN

I cant imagine when we get married
Appears to be those typical housewife alone at home

Good thing is
Other than cleaning the whole damn house
Which I will never do
I'm surfing the net

But bloody shit
I always surf net whether I'm at home or not

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz

Sky's turning grey
Kinda anticipating the rain

When it rains
DarDar cant fish
So he'll come home
Wooohoooo

I'm evil

But who cares

One more week of work before I officially retire from 'hell'

With my new boss implementing work processes & procedures
All of us are in a clearer picture that our BIG boss is incompetent
It's all about quantity but no quality
Even if there's quality
It takes several long steps instead of immediate step for completion

My colleagues are complaining likewise
YEahhhhhhhhhhh

I'm smart
^^
Smart enough to see what's up her sleeve before I falls into her Black-widow trap

I'm craving for seafood
Wanna go Malaysia for a feast, anyone?

I dont remember what I wanted to blog about

Ermm...