Saturday, December 22, 2012

Few days ago
I had one of my proud moments
After 4.5 years of hardwork
I'm finally one step closer to my goal
My thesis finally returned after months of delay
& now I have to rush before a deadline just 1 month away
So I can have my convocation next year

That moment I received my theses
I was all so ready to work on it
Coz I know I am really close to the finishing line
I posted a photo of my letter
& commented that more work is to be done over the holidays
Friends were congratulating me
For making one step closer
I was thankful
Thankful for all the wishes, as well as my friends who encouraged me

A lot of flashbacks came into my mind
I saw how me & my friends worked hard
Played hard
Shared fun times
& told myself to appreciate friendship, no matter short or long

The next day
I received a call from a friend
She told me to be careful of what I post
Because my post & following comments made someone unhappy 
& I was condemned 
I was shocked
What have what I posted and my friends commented bother that someone?
Why poke into my private life and imply me of something i did not purposely do?

I was so sad
That I actually broke down during work
It was a happy & proud moment for me
Unfortunately only lasted for 1 day

I can understand why
I actually have sour grapes around me
who told twisted accounts behind my back
I then realised how naive I still am
Believing I have all the good friends who walk with me
But only to know
That the closest and most trusted friend screwed me & my 1-day happy moment

 I spoke to some other friends
Outside this community 
& they consoled me with their full heart
They felt for me and understand who I really am
They know I was innocent and appreciate me for being true all the time
and being me

They advised me to not look back
Move forward
Concentrate on my amendment
Prove them wrong about what they think about me
& that all of them will be supporting

With all my heart

I took that 1-day happiness as a learning lesson in life
That no matter how old you are, thinking you will no longer have friends in life
The closest and most trusted person you know can be your enemy

My true friend told me
What doesnt kill you  make you stronger
& yes
It sure did
This kinda thing works extremely well for me

I will fight on

Friday, May 25, 2012

It's funny how I can no longer rant as much as I could in my blog like 10 years ago

Yes, I started blogging at 18

When I looked at my old blog entries
I laughed
They were so funny
Laughed at what I did
Laughed at what my friends did to me
Laughed at how funny my narrations were
Laughed at how bad my English was

These funny stocks can no loner be found in my current new blog
Not exactly new
But I ended my 'Le Monde Perdu Sans Retour' after I left the plane back Singapore
That blog described my 3 years of life in Hong Kong, & slightly some in Singapore before I left for my Uni
Blogger seems to have remove my archives, which means none can read how stupid I was

It still has my last 5 blog entries to 'hold' the blog
Abit disappointed that my memories were gone
But it's ok
Thinking back
It was just some young girl stupid rantings that probably hurt someone without senses

I hereby apologise

This 'Simple Mind, Complicated thoughts' blog is made once I reached Singapore
& I havent been a good one since  then
While social media now spreads like wild fire
There're alot of things that I have to say with care
& while my life is not so much influenced by the society
& mainly focused with traveling & diving
I guess no one probably reads about my trips since every entry will be the same
& thus I got too lazy to blog ever
 Just some random photos to illustrate
For 'a picture speaks a thousand words'
It did my job

I could probably abandon this, in time to come
But undecided

Then again, maybe I can keep this open in case I needa rant anytime

I hope there're people reading!


Friday, May 18, 2012

havent been blogging
Life has become abit dull lately

Other than some late night cries over some sad issues
I guess basically I'm still surviving alright

Thanks to those who showed concern to me after they read my rants in Twitter
Thanks for remembering me & asking

I'll smile more now ;)

Friday, April 27, 2012

Gorgeous sunny Friday
How about adding the 1km swim?
That's a totally perfect lifestyle!!


Friday, April 13, 2012

Maybe because I'm embarking a new life
I'm seeing things very open now
At the same time
I just hope things go as I wished & planned

I just returned from Pulau Redang for my annual dive trip
Everything was fun
Love the sun, the sand & the water

Monday, March 26, 2012

i am reading this book & it is inspiring me to do a backpack trip
maybe a short one for the start
anyone's keen?

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Last week was pretty busy
However, it was not of personal causes

Dardar's cousin & his family visited HK over the week
& we were tasked to take care of their dogs while they were away
These 2 poms were really playful
They jumped onto us when they see us
 & wanted to lick us so much

To satisfy their needs as a canine
I succumbed to their TLC towards humans
& let them 'have' me for 10 minutes every day
Leaving me sticky with their saliva all over my body

Over the weekend
DarDar went for his fishing trip with his friends to Tanjong Pinang, Indonesia
I was left alone to take care of the dogs
I was helping my friend to do her fieldwork in the mangrove
So the dogs were pretty much on their own for the day 

It had been a really long time that I last went out to the field
To the nature, to be precise
My outdoor research stopped last September
& i was really itching to get out to breathe some natural air
I was glad that i was being able to help
& at the same time
Loosen myself up from the continuous mad thesis-writing

Just one more month for me to submit my first draft
Another 2 months of ding-dong-ing
& I can graduate finally!!

I cant waittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt to take a break
Before I land myself to employment where freedom is least expected

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Photos of my Langkawi trip are up!

I visited Langkawi 10 years ago
This time, I'm back with DarDar
& brought him for a short trip

Things hadnt changed much, seriously
Still pretty dull as before
But this time round
We had more money
So we feasted on seafood
Which only got us overdosed with marine toxin
& suffered from food intoxication a day after we returned Singapore

We had so much fun that  we were really exhausted at the end of everyday
Both of us enjoyed the trip & companion

Thursday, March 08, 2012

You have to watch this
We're uniting to stop the world's #1 criminal

Participate here too

Thursday, March 01, 2012

i want to do a tattoo
have my tibetan inked 
so it can remind me of my given talents
also to inflict pain to wake me up from crushing waves of emotions

this may sound silly
but i think my reason for getting it is more appropriate than anyone wanting to do a tattoo for fun

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Do you know how it feels to be floating on the water surface surviving from clashing waves but not knowing where to go ashore?

I am having this feeling
All the time

I just received a message from an Australian friend
She asked if I'm done with my PhD
& she is eager to read my publications

I was touched
Knowing that, actually someone is anticipating it!

But at the same time
It is disappointing because my probably 1st paper had been rejected
& I have not been getting help to properly come out with a perfect one

Although I feel proud of my research
I feel loseric because I am not able to present myself as  I should be in the real scientific society

Why do some people's manuscript get published with ease?
But I have obstacles all the time?
It really saddens me
Demoralises me

What should I really do?

I'm so sick of my work now
Having doing the same thing for almost 5 years isnt as easy as one thinks
Things just get more complicated as you think more about it

Like my title says
Simple mind, complicated thoughts

Monday, February 20, 2012

Attended Pang Association Lunch (彭氏宗親會 ) in JB yesterday
A annual gathering of the people whose surname is Pang
My father-in-law is the chairman of the Association
This obviously called for an attendance within his own family!

Woke up early so we escaped the jam along causeway
Luckily i still looked not bad :p

The lunch was going to start at 2
so before that
we had a stroll at the JB premium outlets
Finally got the chance to look at the items in Coach & Burberry

We only made a short window-shopping walk at level 1
& got to our location for lunch
There was lion dances
& the lion was PINK!
cute la!!

The event was coupled with singing competition
& every singer sang damn well
It wasnt those chicken-slaughtering session where you had to cover your ears while feeding
so overall the event was rather enjoyable!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

i am such a bitch
i slacked for 1 week
wasted my time not writing my report
i am so ashame of myself

what's more
i am gonna be away every weekend from now till march
god bless my discipline

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

This is the only song in my mind

I picked up a $2 just now
& i used it to buy 4D


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

On our way to Malaysia...
A stupid driver wanted to overtake our bus in a one-lane road at the roundabout
But drove too slow
Got nudged at its rear by our bus
& crashed up the curb & into the signage

Hello, can you people just drive normally?

After a 4 hours ride...
We reached Sungei Besi
Always like the view of the Petronas Twin Tower 

When you see view like this....
It's not your fuzzy vision
It's Genting Highlands!

The lack of sleep = small eyes >_<

Mum had a smashing good time bowling!
She said she used to bowl when she was young


Although it was a 2D1N trip
It was quite a time  for us to bond together
But it's getting dull in Genting Highlands already
Maybe we'll go somewhere next time

Penang, maybe?

Friday, February 10, 2012

I didnt lie!
Luck shone on me twice within a week!

I am soooooo happy!
Keep that coming!
& of coz
I wont be taking that for granted
I will appreciate this chance for me to getaway from work
& come back a stronger person

Thanks for everyone who is looking over me ;)

Thursday, February 09, 2012


My Langkawi trip is still being negotiated with the organiser due to some hiccup
& that really dampened my mood
But guess what?
I won a 2D1N Genting Highland stay this weekend
& I'm going with my mum!

It's supposedly a trip with DarDar
but he couldnt make it this weekend

Hope this weekend is gonna be fun!

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

i pray that my trip still goes on & be even better

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

I had some emotion roller coaster recently
But thanks to J who chatted with me
I sincerely thank all those who spoke to me & told me that not all things are perfect as it seems
I could have just forgotten about my own self & be naive

To cheer things up
Thanks Yasminne @ Class 95 for picking my story during Lunchbreak
& I won a $100 Phiten voucher just by sharing my work experience!
Sadly, I wasnt home to hear my story being read out
But thanks M for messaging me to tell me about it ;D

Here's what you can do to join in the sharing session on Lunchbreak!
print-screened off Facebook

I am so going shopping soon!

When there're sad moments, there're always happy moment awaiting
Life is never perfect but is balanced 
Life is never fair but is compromised
Live happy!

Here's my story to Yasminne

You may find it uploaded here later in the week too

Thursday, February 02, 2012

Another short trip coming up! 

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

I want to go
1) Bali
2) Phuket
3) Dubai
4) Hokkaido

But I am not rich anymore....
I can only go JB


Monday, January 30, 2012

Thursday, January 26, 2012

It's time to look ahead

This year
My travel schedule is lesser than ever
I flew 7 times last year!!!
This year
I forsee it's only 2

but good news about just having 2 is that
I will be travelling to a more expensive & more exotic place in 2013!

Good things need to wait

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

my Chinese New Year has ended
i dont have much people to visit
so, no more visiting & depositing unneccessary fats

over the past few days
everyone's wishing 'Happy New Year' instead of 新年快樂 恭喜發財 萬事如意 身體健康
where are all these Chinese New Year's blessings?
it sounded sad that it'd sorta become just another Western new year celebration
by only hanging up red auspicious wall decor & putting up pots of freshly bloom flowers doesnt mean it is Chinese Lunar New Year without the appropiate blessings

i made myself said these
but what i got back in return is in English
the Chinese culture is gone
pretty sad

maybe i am returning HK next year for Chinese New Year to enjoy the atmosphere

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

the first day of CNY had come to an end
sighed relief
however, dardar fell sick

i got heavier
which meant i grew fatter
i guess i will have to run really soon
despite my foot injury

i rather go lame than go fat!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

oh you know what?
i could be wrong this year
i'm actually enjoying the new ear's eve!
maybe on the actual new year's day
it's gonna be better than i expected?

what's more
the fortune teller said that those born in the year of pig are the luckiest star among those of other zodiacs!
does that really come true?
so true that i'm experiencing the 'luxky star shine' now?

i am spending my new year's eve watching the live coutdown show by MyFm crew
& omg
they are so great in celebration
they sing hippie new year songs
& they also have a cute dragon mascot to make the show really cool!!

it's only 1 hour left entering the dragon year

happy chinese new year!

Friday, January 20, 2012

This Chinese New Year is so screwed
It just didnt happen the way it normally should

My family usually has our reunion dinner before the actual day of Chinese New Year
& on that day
We just started the dinner later than usually
It was a steamboat dinner
So it really doesnt matter how long you wish to eat for as long you want to eat
But my brother went out to celebrate with his friends
Leaving only me, Dardar, Mum & Dad
It was not so 'reunion' afterall

My Dad wishes to eat as a whole family again
But apparently
This is impossible because everyone is so busy nowadays
Particularly DarDar ever since he'd been promoted & joined the new department
Brother was stupid to overlook the importance of family to friends
Pampered  kids......

Oh whatever

The mood of Chinese New Year sucks
I am not anticipating it at all
This is because I hate to do all the visitings
& have to face every elderly's question :'so when are you gonna have a child?'

Shut up

Even if I have one, I dont want to announce
Why stick your nose into my personal affair?

I never enjoy celebrating all festivals
It is just another day
You get high on that day
The next day
You still have to suck up to your bosses, sink into loads of shitload
So how is getting high a good event for you?

This is just my personal opinion
Whoever read this need not agree with me
For I dont care
& I live my life

So do you

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Remember my pink nail polish?
Oh man
The more I look at it
The more I fall in love with the colour

The polish is from Christian Dior
& I got that as a gift from my ex-colleague 

Now that I thought I wanna own my bottle
It actually costs a freaking SGD35!!


The price of beauty

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Friday, January 13, 2012

DarDar said I snored when I slept last night
He wasnt complaining
but he was glad that I had a good night sleep after that late with insomnia

I woke up
with blocked nose & heated body

Thanks Friday 13th

Thursday, January 12, 2012

I didnt have a good night sleep last night
My mind was filled with many thoughts
which, strangely, I couldnt remember what I thought
I did remember I dreamt
& that dreamt was a scary one, but not scary enough to be classified as a nightmare
I only knew I woke up in fear

What was I thinking?
Or was I thinking too much?

Wednesday, January 11, 2012