ok guess what i think i am gettin back to blogging i'd stopped blogging coz somehow facebook had taken over the media to rant but apparently that doesnt work for me because, although i'd like to rant i do not wish to have my 600 friends to read about it somemore i dont wish others to know too much of my life
i now need to rant because i really feel bad very very bad i have been ranting about how my work is being held up to fellow mates how i forsee that i am unlikely to graduate smoothly how dark my future is all because of someone something
but nowi think i should let their ears free & maybe talk to myself?
i hate saying the same old things does anyone even care about how being cheated feels? i must strongly admit that it's nothing about my marriage, but more of career
few days ago i was really on the verge of breaking down kept looking at my Tibetan name that Dalai Lama gave me kept hesitating having it inked on myself to remind myself to lead a positive life
why i had such thoughts is coz whenever i feel depressed i tried to cut myself & i did that ever
it is unhealthy yes i know so each time i think of cutting myself i remind myself not to do so but if someone can learn to be more efficient & thoughtful & care about others i may actually feel better
maybe my life is really that bad that i just have to comply to it i can just never get out of this shit