Wednesday, November 30, 2011

My blog skin had been this since 5 years ago

You think I should do something about it?

Monday, November 28, 2011

After a week's work
I went on a roadtrip to Port Dickson with my in-laws & family

The journey was good
I always love roadtrips

DarDar & I have been planning a one-week roadtrip from Singapore to Phuket one day
Let's see when that will be

Back to reality
& clear work before Xmas holidays!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I havent been that commited in work for a very long time
For 12 hours to be exact
Somemore, it wasnt my work
It was work of my two juniors
At the end of the day
We all had done our very best
So now, it's GOOD LUCK, GIRLS!

I had also finally submitted my manuscript
Of course I'm happy
After all the hard work
But I still have to wait for it to get past stage 1 - if it is going to be accepted into the journal
& then stage 2- reviewers
Stage 3 - accepted for publication
Final stage - publication

God bless me

& also everyone around
Because of one another, we live happily

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Being too strong isnt helping
It just adds more loads on the shoulder
Making you feel heavier & heavier
You collapse

No one around will pity you though
Because humans are selfish
Moreover, it is your life
"Who are you to care what I want to do?"


So just let things flow
It will flow smooth itself

Everything happens for an unknown reason
Everyone meets one another by chance
This is fate
We cant control fate
What is yours is yours

No matter how nasty it looks like
This is nature
You just have to accept it even if it fails the null hypothesis

Just take & move
Take care & move on

Monday, November 21, 2011

a probably 1 hour editing took 1 month to reply
someone please define efficiency

Sunday, November 20, 2011

guess what
i think i am gettin back to blogging
i'd stopped blogging coz somehow facebook had taken over the media to rant
but apparently that doesnt work for me
because, although i'd like to rant i do not wish to have my 600 friends to read about it
somemore i dont wish others to know too much of my life

i now need to rant because i really feel bad
very very bad
i have been ranting about how my work is being held up to fellow mates
how i forsee that i am unlikely to graduate smoothly
how dark my future is
all because of someone something

but nowi think i should let their ears free
& maybe talk to myself?

i hate saying the same old things
does anyone even care about how being cheated feels?
i must strongly admit that it's nothing about my marriage, but more of career

few days ago
i was really on the verge of breaking down
kept looking at my Tibetan name that Dalai Lama gave me
kept hesitating having it inked on myself
to remind myself to lead a positive life

why i had such thoughts is coz
whenever i feel depressed
i tried to cut myself
& i did that ever

it is unhealthy
yes i know
so each time i think of cutting myself
i remind myself not to do so
but if someone can learn to be more efficient & thoughtful & care about others
i may actually feel better

maybe my life is really that bad that i just have to comply to it
i can just never get out of this shit