Do you know how it feels to be floating on the water surface surviving from clashing waves but not knowing where to go ashore?

I am having this feeling

All the time

I just received a message from an Australian friend

She asked if I'm done with my PhD

& she is eager to read my publications

I was touched

Knowing that, actually someone is anticipating it!

But at the same time

It is disappointing because my probably 1st paper had been rejected

& I have not been getting help to properly come out with a perfect one

Although I feel proud of my research

I feel loseric because I am not able to present myself as  I should be in the real scientific society

Why do some people's manuscript get published with ease?

But I have obstacles all the time?

It really saddens me

Demoralises me

What should I really do?

Man

I'm so sick of my work now

Having doing the same thing for almost 5 years isnt as easy as one thinks

Things just get more complicated as you think more about it

Like my title says

Simple mind, complicated thoughts