Monday, November 07, 2005

*poof*
And there goes my fever
Weird heh
Siao siao one
But knn
I gained 1kg
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Those medicine made me fat
&^$%@^%!!)^#&!@$^%$)!^!%@

Started work at 4pm
Worked with this new girl
Who just graduated as a nurse
Very quiet
Cannot talk cock
Very sian
I was reading the stupid 'ELLE' magazine for the fifth time
Until I can recite every article reversed

Consulted Dr Wong on my scar on my shin
Hasnt recover since my OWD
Grrrr
Post-inflammatory pigmentation
Yikes
Given Betasone cream
Dr Wong teased
"Aiyo...you want perfect skin dont be so adventurous again lah... you shan wan shui"

Dr Loh was very blur
She dropped this blood count needle into the hazardous containers
where all the used syringes were thrown into
& she asked me to retrieve for her
.............
I used the forcep to take each syringe out carefully
Kaoz
Some still have blood in it
I so scared I kana poked sia
Amitabha amitabha
I think I didnt kana lah....

Abit lazy tonight
Dumped all the dispensing to Sally
Bwhahahaha
I act busy pour medince write logbook
Heeheehee

Supper finally with Er ge
After grounded for 2 weeks
But still didnt recieve a satisfactory permission though
Whatever
I had my prata!!
Didnt dip much curry coz my throat still not getting any better
Cough as soon as the spice triggered it
=Wasted

Saw this bapok upon arrival
Sat at 2 o'clock position from me
Knn
Lost appetite
Heng he left 5mins after I sat down
I kept complaining to Er ge
"Eh..You quick see..your 8 o'clock"
"Eh..kaoz...he wearing high heels leh...got so big size meh?"
"Eh...What the...got neh neh leh!!"
"Eh...see see got apple not? Tmd, blocked. Kua bo..."

Er ge giggled until bth
Nearly choked on his prata
Replied
"You got a problem with that?"
Me:"Yah..her neh bigger than mine"

Good
Slack week starts again
I shall study my final theory and log the tapes that I've always been procrastinating
Then play with Momo before I leave for HK for a week
Later forget me how?
=(

Time to sleep
Gotta wake up at 6am for my antibiotics
Shucks

Saturday, November 05, 2005

"Hey, what are you gonna do for his birthday?"
"Nothing"
"Not even as a friend?"
"I dont think he treats me as one... furthermore SHE will be celebrating for him. I dont see I'm needed"
"Aiyo.."


On this day
It just brought me very bad memory
Sad one though
It is my boy's birthday

I was in HK working my ass off on my FYP
& being trapped in the secluded part of HongKong island where reception is almost none
I searched for the only area with reception
Called back SG & wished my Dear a 'Happy Birthday'
He picked up the phone
& replied "You called me for what?"
I was devasted
Silent for 3 seconds
I hung up

I just felt sad I couldnt be there to celebrate with him
& hoping my call can brighten him
& he could still sense my presence
But didnt expect such

What's more
Something bitchy happened
Which really broke my heart

Obviously
Some bitch overtook my role
Happily celebrated the day with him
Bringing him to the top of the world

Next few days
Shitty things happened

Fine
I'd expected
But not over such minor incident that can break the connection between us two
His side of bond isnt strong
Neither his faith

The trust i'd given him over & over again
Had diminished over time
until I felt so helpless & lost

Today
The day is here
I still remembered i wanted to celebrate with him in a chalet
When I'm back
But it had already called off before I managed to do so

I know that that particular bitch is gonna celebrate with him again
I just know
She's too over friendly to her normal friend which others claimed to see her as a 3rd party
Which sadly so, she was, in mine
I would have believe her & my boy that they are just normal
But both arent convincing enough

Friends, one can be
But please know the limit
When it's time not to cross
DO NOT FUCKING CROSS!
Act caring, act cute, act loving

WA PUI!

See
I told you it brought me bad memories

I hate today
I hate bitches
I hate her
I hate birthdays

Anyway
Happy Birthday Lewis Dear
I have never been so sick before
1 week of sickness is a torture
Feverish for 5 days, going 6th
Sore throat for 3 days
Cough for 2 days
No nice food such as otak, soft shell crab tempura
Most type of food eaten are the medicine
No long outdoor activities
Nearest is my clinic
Longest hangout place is my bed
In fact
I have also never slept for so long before
Shucks

I have got bags of medicine
Can open pharmacy liao
Ranging from panadol all the way to antibiotics
Having effects of drowsiness to trembling
The taste buds on my tongue are so numb to the chemicals that I can no longer taste plain water

Damn the throat infection
Those who have been pissing me off lately should count themselves lucky
Coz I cant even raise my voice to scream at them
You wait...

Now I crave for pasta
BWahahhahaahahaha

Oh well

Friday, November 04, 2005

I have a super bad sore throat
So painful that I couldnt sleep at night
& gotta wake up at 3am to take my medicine
When I woke up
I cant speak a word
Until I managed to do so
My voice is darn low & sexy.....
*giggles*

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

I had a good nap this afternoon
Medicine finally taking effect
>_<

Returned Absolute Scuba to log my dives
Martin also forgot the number of dives we did
Heng I got blog bt it!!
Later double check and put under 'narrative'
I also forgot most of the things we saw or did sia

Last dive to Pulau Dayang on 11 Nov weekend
SHOULD I GO?!?!?!
But I no money leh....
Sponsers sponsers
50% also shiok

Treat it as my birthday gift ah?
*wink wink*
heehee
Just gotten this news from Kevin
He said that the neighbourhood magazine
Which featured me as the cover-girl
Is coming out next week!

SHUCKS!
SO PAI SEHHHHHHH!!!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

I am down with fever for 2 days
=(
3 possiblilties
1)too much fastfood eg: KFC & McDonalds
2)too tramautized by the surgery on Sunday's night
3)too much stress suddenly

I believe it's all three

Had this model interview this morning for a car exhibition
Sucks
I really mean it sucks
Not that my performance sucks
Although I admit I did coz I'm sick
The jobscope sucks
Why?
Coz it just sucks
PUI!
I spit my largest mouthful of saliva over my shoulder
PUI PUI PUI!

Rushed to work after that
Mala made snacks for Hari Raya
*munch munch*
Tasted nice =)
Got my pay
WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!
Salary increment!
$_$
What a Deepavali gift!
Now I can go buy(some of)my dive gears & go for diving trips liao!
=D

Needa grab some sleep
The paceco & promethazine are taking effect
Zzzzz

Monday, October 31, 2005

When I first stepped into the clinic
Dr Chow asked me into the room
"I need you to help me hold the baby's head.."
I was still unsure what he was trying to do
Coz I dont even know what happened
Then I realised the baby had a fall
The back of her head had a deep cut
& bled profusely

I put on my gloves & held the head firmly
As Dr Chow injected lidocaine
The baby cried out loudly
"Ym, you're very firm at holding the head. Very good"

10 minutes later
The baby entered the room again
Was asked to go in again
Dr Chow brought out the surgurical instruments
& did stitchings on the baby
3 stitches for the flesh
5 stitches on the outer skin
The baby cried until out of sound
& I was still holding firmly on the baby's head
So scared it'll move around
& affect the stitching

At the last stitch
I suddenly felt giddy
I saw white spots
Something wasnt right
I thought my body had been too stiff & too concentrated on holding the baby
& I moved abit
But it got worse
I felt real heavy on my head
I almost couldnt see anything with all the spots appearing in my eyes
I wanted to stay awhile longer
& waited for the last stitch to complete
But I thought I shouldnt risk people's life at this moment
I'm supposed to help save life!

"Dr Chow, I dont feel that well..."
"Go take a rest and ask Alice to take over..."

I staggered out with the remaining strength
& collapsed on the chair
Cold sweats rolled down my forehead
Alice said I was cold and looked pale
I rested my head for a while on the counter before my normal vision recovered
& continued my work at the counter

My 1st time assisting a doctor on surgery
I wasnt scared of blood
But I was really surprised I got unwell at the very last moment

I spoke to Mala over SMSes
She said maybe due to shock & I wasnt prepared for it
Erm, true
I was called in as soon as I entered the clinic
Haven even sit down!

I spoke to Dr Chow
He said maybe I was too intensed and focused that I didnt move my body
Which also happened to him during his marches in NS
Somemore the baby's crying was pretty much annoying
"I'm glad you tell me you didnt feel well. Some staffs didnt even wanna tell & the next thing that happened is them lying on the floor..."
"Oh... coz I'm afraid it'll affect the stitchings..."
"No.. dont worry. It's you whom we're more concerned with...Dont want our staff to have work accident..hahaha"

-_-
Dr Chow still can laugh sia

I spoke to Er ge
He said it's normal to feel this way
Usually at first nothing but then will become dazed
He said I'm scared of blood

I AM NOT!
*stubborn frown*

Eh...
Oh well...
At least I didnt puke out my dinner

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Do you know that McDonalds are having rice burgers now?
Originated from Taiwan
$6 for beef set, $6.20 for chicken
At limited Mac branches eg. King Albert's Park
Whilst stocks last!

Not bad actually
Beef is juicy
But the rice patty is abit tasteless
Abit more seasoning should be better
The presence of many veggies looks like an extreme healthy diet
Good for young and old!

*** TV dont have this advertisement hor? Weird. Unlikely they wont wanna gain profit from this, right?
No one seems to be in the mood to travel to Asia
All the air tickets to Hong Kong are so fucking expensive!
How am I gonna return for my convocation?!

I have a USD$100 voucher from United Airlines
Hell NO am I gonna use it
What can be worse than being delayed 3 times without prior notice and waited with hungry stomach & thirsty throat for 6 bloody hours just for the damn plane to arrive from Philadephia at 1am?
What can be worse than being delayed 3 times keeping my Dear waiting sleepily at the cold airport with no sofa to sleep on?

But since there's no cheap tics
No choice, I guess
Hope they dont delay again & send me the voucher again
I will burn that away, I swear

DAMN NO CHEAP AIR TICKETS!!
Damn the H5N1
Damn the cigureta
Damn the pig virus
Damn the SARS
Damn the heavy-metal-intoxicated vegetables
Damn the counterfeit goods
Damn everything that degraded HongKong's quality

P/S: Malaysian Airlines good or not? Do they have satay onboard with nasi bryani, keropok and teh tarik? Do they greet 'Selamat Datang' as you board the plane?

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Today went to kua chia with my brothers
The new Honda Civic 2006 is out!
So excited
I woke up sibei early
Then disturbed Er ge wake up
BWHAHAHAAHAH
& off we went to Ubi Kah Motor

So many people crowded at the new Honda Civic
& wanted to sit inside trying the seats & stuffs
Hee hee. Daphne at the driver's seat
The interior is very nice. I like the speedometer most
Coz it's digital with blue background light
An adjustable steering wheel that can move up, down, towards and away according to your prefered hand positionA handbrake that pulls back instead of a push-downA K20 iVTEC engine... Ba ba baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaA very very big boot that can sleep 2 people insideThe sibei chio HID headlightWilson gor gor & Er ge crawling on the floor to pick up gold pieces under the car....Bwhahaha
No lah, checking the engine undeneath, I think

Overall?
VERY CHIO!!
But I'd prefer an Integra...Wahahahahahahaha
If only this is MINE!!!!=xxxxxxxxxxxxx

So fun today
Learnt so many things from my dear brothers
>_<
Now at least I know one doesnt need a key to turn on the lights
So one excuse less for failing my Final theory test next next next week
Hahahaha

More kua chia session please
I wanna go see Subaru's!
Clifford jio-ed to watch Flightplan last night
Not a bad movie
It kept twisting around
& knn
I kana shocked twice
By the sound
Bleah
Heng no one noticed

Stupid people just love to call me when I'm at movie
When I'm at home
NO ONE CALLS!!
Pui
Ivan is one of the stupid people
Called to ask me buy 'Cello' tics for him & Tisa
Zzzz

Headed to Esplanade to rot
Clifford asked what's so beautiful about the night scenery
Good question
I donno
Chio means chio loh
I like can or not?

Recieved this message from an idiot in Friendster
kaoz
Sounded until like I die die must know him like that
Die die must add him like that
When he is the one who messaged me
Nb
Wait long lah...
So what you dive too
As if I lack of dive buddies
I got Clifford, KC, Jeffery, Martin, Tze-yau, Gene-jie, Kevin, Abel, Mike, Wai, Chay Hoon, Alvin, Ivy, Hanpeng, Gigi, Rita, Heidi, Wolfie senior, Aggie, Tom W, Cathy, Abby, Wilson gor gor, etc
So many!
WHO CARES ABOUT YOU!?
*rolls eyes*

Balek kampong lim neh lah...

Shucks
=Wondering what animals will KC get to see at Dayang today
Bumpheads? Many many bumpheads???
>_<
I so wanna go too!

Friday, October 28, 2005

I love Momo



Momo loves me

*** KC is going diving tonite. SHUCKS! I also want!!!

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Went for my cover-girl photoshoot selection today
All the way to Serangoon
Hmmm...

Abit excited
Coz it's my 1st time visiting Serangoon
LOL

When I entered the salon
I went 'EH!'
The hairdresser 'EH!' also
It was Lisa!
The one whom styled my hair during my Tokyo color hairshow
Geeezzzz
Then Kenneth asked:"Why?"
Lisa:"She remembers me... & I remember her.."
Kenneth turned to me:" Then you remembered me or not?"
I replied:" No leh..."
BWHAHAHAHAHAHA

Kenneth led me to the seat
Combed hair, took pictures
Discussed about the photoshoot thingy
About jade coz he saw the one I was wearing
Then talked about the fishes in his aquarium
LOL

He told me that he only called 6 models down
& only 2 will be selected
Haircut, hair-coloring, make-over will be done
& on that day
Only 1 will be chosen with the best overall effect
On top of that
He said he wanted someone with sharp features
Lisa ever said I have
Hmmmmmmm.......
>_<

Went back Woodlands to meet Lionel, Kee & Ivan
Long time never meet them sia
Kee & Lionel miss me
BWHAHAHAHAHAHA
Went home at evening
& out again for dinner with Mum & Er ge
Very full siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
*burpz*
Fat fat fat fat fat

My brother's attitude is getting from bad to the very worst
No big no small
Knn
Must find one day to slap him, skin him alive & roast him over the devil's pit

Er ge, can I borrow your fire?

It's 230am
I'm still awake
Although eyes shutting

Was helping Zhiwei with his report on 'Mangroves'
Provided him with ideas
Taught him write references
How to support with evidences

After 3hours
said
"Can dont put the pages for the references?"
"Actually I donno how your Uni teachers. But for mine, I have to put"
"Last sem I never put any I still got B. Sci students do Arts module got leeway"
"Haha. Actually I also never put any references for my music report"
"That's why..."
"But Sci different. You need support all the way, Arbo not convincing."
"This is not sci module, this is arts module"
"ARTS?!"
"Yah..geography.."
"KNN, I thought Sci leh...sound so scientifically demanding"
"That's why I thought how come I'm writing a science report instead.."
"Like that you anyhow bullshit lah.."


Thanks

*yawnz*

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Was out with Ivan hunting for Tisa's birthday pressie
Bleah
First time see him so good ask me out
So the motive is...?
Help him think of what to buy
Then when ideas were given
Continue to complain
"She got this liao...how? Buy what? Gimme ideas leh..."

*rolls eyes*

Given many ideas liao
This dont want, that dont want
My fault?

Went to the Kid's section in Metro
& guess what I saw?
CAREBEARS!!!
Wooooooooooo
CAREBEARS, SHINE!!!!
*beams lovely power from tummy*
I love the racoon in the cartoon




But the plush wasnt on shelf
Damn

Geez
They're so cute
Reminded me of my childhood

Ivan ransacked the shelf beside me
"Woooo...friend bear...wooo...braveheart lion...wooo...bedtime bear.."
"Wah, you know all their names?"
"No lah, the tags said one mah"
"Scared me sia...thought you really know them all"
"Funny leh, dont have my racoon"
"Ah, elephant..."
"The carebear cousins.."
"What cousins? Not carebear meh?"
"Hello? Care-BEAR. This is elephant. So is cousins. Cant call it care-elephant right? Their series lah..."
"......."

Heehee
I also carebear wor

Wish Bear
You are the dreamer of the group and believe that things will all turn out exactly how you want them to be. Your extreme optimism often annoys your friends but they realize that you do have the power to make your dreams come true. You also keep an eye out for your friends, always looking out for them.




Then I saw
PAWPHANS!
Ok lah
The dogs look abit weird with the super big eyes
But
I ONLY WANT THE HUSKY!!!
It said "rare breed"




1000 only!!!
Andrew checked out for me in Melbourne liao
Already sold out
Damn
Who can get for me???~~

Then I told Ivan about 'My little pony'
"Eh you know hor, last time I got alot of 'my little pony'"
Ivan looked at me with a buay-tahan smile
"Really! I always helped them comb their hair, tie hair...then some the backside there got logo, rub it can change to another logo"
Ivan still looking at me with a more buay-tahan smile

-_-
I think he had hard time control his laughters

Cute what....
No meh?

Awwwww...
The carebears & my little pony reminded me of my childhood
& the Teenage Ninja Mutant Turtle, Smurf, Strawberry shortcake, Polly Pocket are back too!!!
Shucks!

Ok
Lemme ransack my attic box to see if my toys are still there...
Hmmmmm =\

kkkkkkkkkkkknnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
I got scalded by boiling hot water
From palm to wrist

Now i cant bloody hold the chopsticks!
*rubs eyes*
Tired sia
Was working on my resume last night
from 11pm to 130am
Until I realised I cant continue late night sleeps anymore
Coz I have my cover girl photoshoot selection!!

Bahhhh

Aiyo
I hate writing resumes
But thanks Er ge for the guidance
>_<

& I promised Er ge I must finish my resume by today!
NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!

*type type type type type type*

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

I went NTU for lunch today
With my bunch of friends
Saw Thomas
But didnt say 'Hi' coz too far away
Oh nevermind

Long time since I meet my pals
Bo, me & GuoquanMe & KennyMe & HengSwee

Shucks
Why am I always on the left side of the photo?

They said I look very tanned wor
Yah meh?
I still think I'm not tanned enough
Woooo
Excuses for more dive trips
Bwhahahaha

Went to attend engineering lecture with Heng Swee
I was pretty attentive for the 1st 20mins until I started to daydream
Bo was sending SMSes to ease his boredom

I sorta miss study life
BWAHAHAHAHA
& that was just 4 months after I graduated!!
Bahhh

Super big rain at 330pm
Feet wet, body cold
Went to have snacks
Must eat veggies
Am on diet

On way back home
This cloud is extremely beautiful

So am.......
Aiyah...you know one lah...

Anyway
Goldwell called me
Asked me to go for this cover-girl selection for this international magazine
Bbecause they think I'm beautiful
Wah...They see me too up. I feel very honoured

Wooohooo~
Oh man
So interesting
I just cant get that evil out from me to stop laughing at her
Gimme a second


BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


Ok
Done

I'd not say names
Coz this particular person is so bloody damn popular that her smell is already well-known to people
For those who dont, be it

I've been following her posts pretty often
& lately some of her posts are really... yikes
I just dont understand why there're 10K audience out there
& leaving hundreds of comments in her box
Saying:"I Love you!" "You Rock!"

Get away with that, lah...
I'm not jealous that I dont have 10K audience
&
For what should I get jealous?

She was involved in some product endorsements
& got herself more popular due to her subsequent appearances
On TV, on radio, on magazine, blah blah
Now one of her endorsements had terminated
She jumped high & low
Questioning people why another particular fellow did that to her
Simply because she knew there'll be many people siding with her
Claiming that she isnt wrong at all

I think she cant use her brains
Not fully experienced with efficient network of neuron transmission
So allow me

I saw her on TV in 'Crossfire' on Channel U last night
& she was invited as panel guest speaker
Obviously
The topic dealt with was 'blogging'
There were the host, the teacher, a news reporter & a lawyer
The Teacher was telling the fact that most of his students followed her blog & he could see that things are getting outta hand
She, however, bombarded that it was the duty of the teachers & parents to tell their children stop reading her blog if it is so bad.
The host then asked why is it that her blog is so popular
She replied by saying that Singlish are more recieved among Singaporeans coz it's boring to read proper English blogs since there are already so many proper English blogs out there (including USA's)
Lemme confirm abit.Her English is proper, except some words like KNNBCCB.Very Singlish MEH?
The teacher then said that nowadays kids are learning bad english & from one way, they were learning from her blog
The lawyer also added that bad blog affects society
She told them off by telling his children "If they like to read, they'll read. Wanna read, read. Dont wanna read, then dont read. People like my blog because of my honesty, frankiness..."

Pui!
Just because her blog is so recieved, this implies that her audience like to read?
Her honesty & frankiness?
Speak about your 'Crossfire' interview then!

Ah
I read hers too
But I dont like leh
Cross me outta your implication list, please

The lawyer then explained some terms, saying that whatever things exposed to the public can no longer considered personal space, especially when she has 10K audience everyday
& guess what she replied?
She agreed to the lawyer

Really meh?
I thought long long long long long time ago she said it was her personal space & she can do what she wanna do regardless of what consequences?

I exclaimed this in front of the TV
"Hui jia he nai la..." (Go home drink milk..)

So 2-headed sia...

Wah
& you know what that host replied?
"Wo jiu de ni hen zhi wo.." (I think you think too much of yourself...)

I laughed out loud
Mum thought i was crazy

FANCY A HOST HAVING AUDIENCE SITTING IN FRONT OF THE TV SET TELLING HER OFF!!
THAT'S EVEN MORE EXCITING THAN READING IT OFF HER BLOG!
Sadly
She doesnt blog about her embarassing things in her posts
No wonder so many dumbasses are blinded

Watch more TV, people...

& at the end of the show
The host, lawyer, teacher & the news reporter bombarded her
Because she made a really wrong statement claiming her blog
Speaking all the way from her own stand instead of the social view
But this is also when the studio lights went off, voice fading

Damn
I wanna see how she react!

Look
Given the fact that she was invited to speak about her blog
& got told off at the end of show simply means that
She isnt as popular as what she thinks
She isnt a good example for the society
The host, lawyer, teacher & the news reporter was trying to switch her thinkings back to the norm
Coz she is too 'zhi wo'
No consideration for the society & its responsibility

Her recent post abt handicap toilet was a disgust to me
To me, personally
What is it that she has to kick a big fuss over a handicap toilet when a man opened the door realising it's occupied with a real handicapped?
What is her point of saying that the man who opened the door is 'damn fucking suay'?
Arent handicaps supposed to use a handicapped toilet?

Look
Inside the Ladies
I noticed that there is one handicapped cubicle
Aunties & ah-soh who have bad time tolerating their almost-burst bladders
Rushed into it
I ever felt that before
But still
I stick to the queue
Coz I know that if a handicapped really appears & that I'm in that cubicle
I'm being so inconsiderate
Likewise you give way to handicapped while boarding bus
You dont expect them to queue behind you just to pee right?

She claimed that she is a good girl, by helping an old lady cross the road
But she is being prejudice about a handicapped in a handicapped toilet
just coz she likes spacious cubicle & the real urge to release her dam
Huh?
So contradicting
An old lady is physically unstable, she may fall if she walks too fast while green man is flashing
A handicap is physically disable, he/she may not reach the other side if he/she isnt fast enough when the green man is flashing
So what?
She rather let the handicapped get knocked down by the oncoming cars?

Geez

She always says nobody is perfect
Bulllllllllllllllllllllll
She is perfect physically
So stop that oxymoronic sentence on a handicapped

With the termination of her endorsement 'provoked' by this handicapped blogger whom he found her irrational over the toilet issue
She came up with self-pity claiming she comes from single-parent family & how young her brother is
Ok ok enough
I'm almost to tears
But so what?
If she is so fucking popular, why fear the loss of one endorsements when she can easily grab many others?
She can pose with bikinis in Maxim for free...
Why the fuss?

I dont have to be as fucking popular as her
& I'd clinched few model assignments
So did my friends
I wasnt paid but I dont mind
It's the experience & exposure I get
Be satisfied with it!

All in all
I have nothing to conclude
Coz I forsee more happening issues

So exciting

P/S: If you, any of her readers, happen to read this & told her I spoke 'bad' (in which I'm only speaking the facts & that you cant digest), please acknowledge that I'm speaking the truth & being honest, just like your 'goddess' whom you worship everyday.