I cant sleep last night leh...
Aiyo
I think coz I played too much games at Settlers Cafe last night with my Coyotes

The Settlers Cafe is located at this secluded part of Holland Village
& they have Ladies' night too!
So we had 2 hrs of games & dinner for only $12.10

So many games that I'd never seen before
Let alone to even heard before

Some toppling game that tests our agility
My Hoot-hoot
Jenga


Still got alot ahhhh
Played until my brain so active I cant rest

So i think next time cannot havoc during weekdays
I'm so deprived of sleep already

Die

Tomorrow got dragonboat training too
Physically & mentally drained

x_X


**************

MY DARDAR PASSED HIS TP TODAY!
FINALLY!
MUST BE MY MASHMALLOW CHOCOLATE!
YEaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Now we can buy car le~

Honda Jazz
Here I come!

Yesterday
Me:"Dar.. no money.. must save money ok? Eat bread drink water only hor.."

Today
I bought chocolates for DarDar
*rolls eyes*

See my DarDar so happy with his sticks of mashmallow chocolate
Mashmallow chocolate & DarDar's pimple
Non-chocolate eater eyeing on the stick
Irresistable temptation
*Chomp*


Ok!
Back to eating bread tomorrow

Today is World's Thalassemia Day
& I went for my free Thalassemia screening
My first time withdrawing blood

The nurse tied this rubber strap across my arm
& located my vein
She pressed and hit on the inner part of my left elbow
& claimed she cant find my vein
Then I joked that I'm too fat, that's why
& she said that my veins are embedded
She then felt it
Poked the needle into my arm

No blood collected
Coz my vein 'moved'

She then called for her colleague to assist in locating another vein
& both of them decided on the obvious dark blue vein on the back of my hand
She poked the needle in
The blood flew out into the plastic capillary
& seeped its way into the sample tube

Only 2ml of blood was collected

The 2 nurses freaked out abit
Seems like my blood was pretty stubborn
& they located the vein on the inner side of my right elbow
This time
A success
More than 20ml of blood collected from the syringe

As the nurse transfered it into the tube
and withdrew the needle out
My blood squirted out of the syringe
& on everywhere

...................

My precious AB+ !!!!

I kana poked thrice
One no blood
Second little blood
Third more than enough blood and overspilling

I had 3 tiny plasters on my arms and hand
Suffered fleshy pain
My first blood withdrawal

Ouch

Bloody hell
I worked my ass off to just earn the extra $300
& what do I get?

Frustration

Some bloody people dashed into the clinic at 1050pm
Claiming their kids are damn sick
Scare will die

My god

If wanna die, send them to A&E lah
Told them we're closing already
Still insisted to wait

In the end
I just knocked off at 1145pm!
45mins of OT

But dont think Dr Wong cares

I must suggest to have OT rates
Since they have increased consultation fees after 1030pm

Lalalala

Sigh

Yesterday
DarDar made me cry
& DarDar did not know how sad & disappointed I feel
He always shoot me back with this particular sentence
I just felt he didnt use his brains well enough to think about my thoughts and feelings deeply

I feel very inferior about myself
In terms of work
I have everything since young
Achieved myself to hold a degree
Which sorta fulfil my parent's dreams
It then plunged me deep down where I consider myself useless

Thinking back
Being able to achieve good results
Reserving myself a place in one of the Top 3 universities in Asia
What do I get?
Low expected pay
A job that I could never imagine myself doing it

I've been job hunting every now & then
& when I happen to see some other jobs that maybe DarDar can try
He told me to stop finding for him

I just feel sad

I didnt mean to purposely find a job for him
But I am happy that there're available jobs for my DarDar
and encouraged my DarDar to give a try
But yet he tarnished my hopes against it
& for the whole hour I wasnt able to find mine
It is a 1: 1000 chances if I could even see one all these while

I cried silently
and kept quiet the whole day
Until I couldnt take it at night
I said
"You get the chances you dont wanna grab. I want also dont have"

The inferior feeling just hit me hard

Demoralisation

I so wanna kill myself
For wasting my parent's resources
and wasting my time

So much so that the world's best qualification just cant match what reality gives
I admire all my friends who can work what they learnt
I admire they enjoy their work
I just admire them

For me
I donno when that will be my turn

Blah
Finally the week is over
I just ended my Dragonboat training
& Hell I'm dead tired

But what the heck
After a 10mins doze in the bus
I'm now all cleaned & dressed to go shopping later
=D

Work on Friday was abit... roller-coaster-ly
My staff emailed me to count the balance of their funds for them
I was like 'Your funds you ask me count?'
But bo bian
In the end I went to find my boss
& my boss counted for me
But both of us could only come out with the expected breakdown
& I just replied her with it
Fearing that she might not be happy coz I didnt provide exactly what she wants
In the end
I recieved a big 'Thank You'
I felt relieved and happy

Then in the afternoon
I recieved a call from the receptionist saying someone is looking for my colleague
So I told my colleague to attend to the person
& when she's back
She told me that I should be the one attending coz I'm the one in charge
& I said but I was told it's yours
She just insisted that I should go out
Ok fine
Come to think of it
If she finds me so
Doesnt it make me the 'receptionist' for you guys?
I was so disappointed
This is so minor
Whoever could attend just attend
Must it always be black & white?
& why me being the one to be nagged at while I'm just helping to pass the message?

Sigh

I so wanna kill my brother
He finished his canned food
Asked me buy but I refused
When I reached home
He said I finished his food
So I must buy back
I told him I dont even have the time to be back home to eat
How the fuck can I eat your fucking canned food?!
If I have the money I wont even eat canned food
Which is very true
& that's why I dont have time to dine at home
How can he blame me?
He forgot he ate it & said me
I tried to explain to him it's not me
He said
"Ah.. wanna cry already lah? Those pathetic voice"

CHAO CHEE BYE

My brother is such an ass
The whole washing machine is full of clothes
He doesnt bother to on it to wash it
He plays his fucking Diablo the whole day
He doesnt boil water
He doesnt wash the dishes
& in the end
I have to do everything after work
& that is a bloody 7pm
I am already very tired!

Told him to help water the plants
He said "Why me?"
& I asked him to help coz I needa cook
He said "Always me"
I told him
"Fine, later dont eat dinner coz I'm cooking it"
& he didnt eat the dishes but plain white rice

EGO!!!

I fucking hate guys with ego
KNN

I donno why I'm so pissed off while typing this
But I am very pissed off by the fact that he is so egoistic!
& my DarDar is also so lazy playing games as well!

ARghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

M
E
N

I dont wanna get married liao

Aiyo
Donno how to survie if I marry

My parents are not in Singapore
So leaving me & my brother at home
I do all the housework & cooking
the 2 men in my house are playing games & watching TV

What the fuck

I off work at 6
Reached neighbourhood at 7
Went to buy groceries till 730
Cooked dinner & had dinner at 8
Finished at 9
Cleaned up till 930
Showered at 940
Now then I can finally sit down

& it's about time to sleep

.........................

Work so fierce
Now back home also so fierce?
Who calls it Home Sweet Home?

*rolls eyes*

It shocked me very much
Although we can consider we are no longer friends
However
Given the past 10 years sharing our lives together
Being there whenever we need each other
These memories just couldnt leave my mind

It had been 2 years
Absolutely no contact
I was dumped off the friendship all so suddenly because of a guy
My planned activities with her were all canceled because of a guy
She lied to me when I needed some concern because of a guy
Our friendship broke because of a guy

At times
I wondered
Where is she?

She lives few roads down my area
But we never meet
I think that's a good thing too
At least both of us wont feel awkward
But I wish I can meet her
So I know how she's doing

She used to be a very sweet girl
Come from a very lovely family
But all turned upside down when her family broke
I consoled her
I gave her financial support
I accompanied her
I gave her my listening ear
& then I stopped
Because of a guy

That guy
Is also one kind
We knew
But ever since he met my friend
He also dumped me out of the friendship

& so happily ever after
They are now together

I'm just a piece of unwanted piece of junk that was being used to catalyse their relationship
I almost wanted to die

I couldnt believe such people exist
So much for my effort for the past 20 years
Living & learning about life as we grow up
& then it just crashed to know that not all are perfect
It hit me

Now
It hit me again
I got to know that my friend is pregnant
Pregnant with that guy's kid
I was shocked
I trusted the guy to take care of her coz they both dumped me to be together
So isnt it happily ever after?

What the fuck (pun intended)

The shock out of this shock is
I know my friend has been terribly sick
She is a regular to all the A&E department in all the hospitals
I sometimes worried about her health
Now adding this pregnancy
Further shock couldnt not be measured

Ectopic pregnancy
The development of a fertilized ovum outside the uterus, as in a Fallopian tube

This is life threathening

I feel happy when my colleagues are pregnant
& am interested to listen to their baby talks
But when I got to know my friend being pregnant
I dont feel likewise
Somemore
She may die from it

Abortion
She did it once
Another time
It will threathen her life again

Did I use the right word 'Friend'?
It's been 2 years with no words exchanged
Yet I feel something is missing

Call me emotional
I beg to differ
I treasure my friendship
Even with someone whom I just knew for a few minutes
We learn from one another even with a short chat

I met this American at Pulau Tioman during my dive trip
We spoke abit
& when we were in the water
I couldnt descend coz not enough weights
He helped me by giving me his
& taught me how to secure the weightbelt effectively
Then
We conversed and chatted about our dives
Amazingly
He also remembered my name
Shouted at me as I walked past him unknowningly
& wished me 'Bon voyage' as we departed the island

DarDar realised that I have a lot of acquaintances
That's true
But it's all who share the same interest
From there
We developed

We never have problem
At least we dont fight over man onboard
We only fight for fishes underwater as our frame of focus isnt capturing properly

Anyway
Back to my pregnant 'friend'

I wondered if she's still reading me
Whatever it is

Take care of yourself
PLEASE

Here
I rest my mind

I sorta scare of going back Malaysia with DarDar
Every second every minute Auntie keep asking me to eat
"Come, eat this, very nice..."
"Come, try this, elsewhere cannot buy.."

Ok loh
Then I also abit very cheapo go and eat loh
& in the end
Ate one after another

I had late dinner on Friday after seeing my parents off to Aussie
& then reached Malaysia at around 10pm
Had dinner till 11pm
& then ate DarDar's birthday cake
& went to bed at around 1 plus
Then next day had Secret Reciepe for brunch
& then had dinner
& then durian for supper
Wah I buay tahan
Heng I still weigh the same

I like to go DarDar's house
Coz it's damn big
& I can run around
Chat with the maid
& sat on his grandpa's OSIM iRobot
Watch his 35" TV
with stereo surround sound
Sleep in his air con room
Wooooo~
But then I'm fed with too good food that I donno if it's a bliss or a bless

Anyway
I made this Prawn Cheese Springroll
Very nice worrrrrrrr~
Saw it on TV
& went to try making it today
Heehee
& it proves a success!

*claps*

WHY OF ALL TIME MY WASHING MACHINE MUST SPOIL WHEN MY PARENTS ARE GOING OVERSEAS!!!!

Sian

Now I smell of Fried Fish Bee Hoon
It just makes me puke
Why?
Coz on Wednesday during my clinic duty
Got this old man had AMI
& puked his dinner out
Smelling exactly as which
& I had to hold the bin for him
I almost died
& he was put on drip
& sent to the hospital

@_@

& my fave food is Fried Fish Bee Hoon
Damnit

I realised that my doctors always like me to assist them
All those surgery emergency cases
Always ask me into the conuslting room

Oh well
This shows that I'm appreciated!
=)

Rain rain rain
Stop raining lah...

Sorry
Have been really busy lately

Brought my 2nd hand Mares Abyss down for Edwin to take a look
& luckily still usable
However needa service that cost about $100+
& I'm gonna bargain for this reg for $300 instead of the quoted $400

Wooohooo
I'm gonna have my own regulator!!

Parents going Australia tomorrow
Sobsob
This means I have to be home more often to take care of house
Darn
No time leh
Wash clothes must spend 1 hr
Cook dinner another
By time everything is done is sleeping time
Where got time to do my things?
Sigh...

Think I better not get married
Cant imagine me staying up late still to do all these

So as my parents go Aussie
I'm going Malaysia
Heehee
Shopping time!
I miss the Secret Recipe there
It's cheap & I can try as much items as possible within my budget

I have a lot of things to do!
No time!
Die
My colleagues are so gonna kill me sooner or later
Once efficient, now no longer
Cant blame
I have 5 hours of meeting for consecutive 3 days
How to sit down to work?

Bad shitty news
I applied for transfer to other company but pending successful application
& the stupid company sent a notification letter to my boss
Die la
Now she knows I wanna leave le
Sure blacklist me liao

Sighhhhhh

May's coming
Diving
Let's be happy for another 2 months
Coz then it's Bonus time!
Probably also resignation time

I'm busy
I'm lazy
I'm just plain busy yet lazy

Cant bt bothered
Planning how to go about doing my 3rd job

Had too much chilli today
Now my stomach burns

My parents are going Australia this Friday!
Sob Sob
I have to do housework
Cynderella!

Thank *pui* it's Friday
I *pui* *pui* & *pui*

Although it's half day for me
I went to MOM to do something for my colleague
but MOM too crowded
So I went back office
& after that go interview
& was pissed off by the guy
& so I pissed him back
then returned to MOM again
But still alot of people
& so I thought of returning to office to return the things to my colleague
But thinking it's half day
So I decided to go find DarDar
& coz today is our anniversary
I wanted to go buy some of his favourite chocolates
But then that stupid mall dont have
& so I decided to go NIE to find him
which I'm sitting down at his cosy cubicle typing this blog entry

So busy

The interview is at this advertising & media company about scuba dive
I was so glad and happy that I was shortlisted
& when I reached there
That idiotic guy told me he dont have my CV
& coz I'm so busy today
I also didnt print my CV
Then I introduced myself
& he straight away rejected
Coz he said I have no sales experience
Nevermind!
So I replied "If you're looking for someone with sales experience, you shouldnt have call me down in the first place"
He felt guilty and told me coz probably due to my qualification and dive certification that's why I'm shortlisted
What a lousy excuse but I didnt care
He then asked me to send him my CV directly for his consideration

Ah
What the heck

I hate such people
Always tell me no time to train want experience
I qualified in science & i'm doing political admin
I am certified with life support skills & I am not a doctor
What makes everyone?
There's always somewhere of a point to start with!
Even Bill Gates doesnt qualified from IT and he's up with Microsoft

Sigh

Gotta job hunt again

Finally rest day tomorrow
=D

Tomorrow is the last day of my this colleague, S
We used to be quite ok when we first started
Could chat could laugh
But slowly
She and the other people started to bully me
Obstracised me from the team
Avoided me when I joined them in a discussion
Pushing all the shitty things on me

It was fine
I could take it
Although I was very sad over that period of time

Then things got abit worse after one of the colleagues resigned
We had to cover her port folio
& then I started to take up mine

I tried very hard to do things within my limit
But without prior work experience and knowledge
I could not do things up to their expectation
& they hate me for 'screwing' up their projects

My boss had been very patient with me
She taught me alot of things
and gradually expanded my portfolio

My other colleagues were not that please that their portfolio decreased while mine increase
Kinda implying that they're not doing a good job as I started to do
& again, more obstracization

I then ventured and looked for new group of 'possible' friends
& I did

Back to S
She is a very dilligent girl
She knows what she is doing
and she can manage her things to be done tactically
I admire her
But because of how they treated me
We never spoke since I came back from my long holidays in Dec

When I ask her things
She always frowns
& ask me go check things myself

It really pisses me off when it's just a Yes or No simple question
& it wastes my time to go check things out
I know that might be the style of how she explores things
But if she knows the answer
She can share
Apparently
No

I was very angry

Every email that she sent me
Demanded me to do things
Even minor things also must carbon copied to boss

Political tactic

I do not know what went wrong
& I couldnt care
& yes
I did feel sad

Until last month
I found out that she resigned
She did not tell me
I was very disappointed

If we could not be friends
Being a colleague would be least appreciated
But I dont think this is so even

I spoke to my 'brother'
& he told me not to be so sensitive
But I told him I'm just disappointed
Is she so unforgiving if I really had done something wrong?
It's her last few days
Could she be more open & accept me as a colleague?

I then forget about it
& be it
Afterall
I'm the open-minded one
If you dont like me, then forget it
If you wanna hate me for life, be it too
But it's just that I dont understand why so

Despite the inner grudge
We had our farewell lunch yesterday

I feel fine today
Just feeling a bit missy that she's gonna leave
I even thought of writing her a farewell email although I sit in front of her
Afterall
We'd worked for a year

Some hours near the end of the day
It sparked me
I saw the printed documents I wanted in her rubbish bin

HOW CAN SHE THROW MY DOCUMENT AWAY WITHOUT ASKING ME WHEN IT LANDED UP WITH HER?
SMELLY SEA HUM!

This is toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much

If she hates me, yes, go ahead & ignore me
That's our private issue
Work is work
& throwing away my documents making me unable to complete my task just because she hates me is interfering MY work

I felt both pissed and very sad

My first job
Met this type of people
I learnt

Tomorrow is her last day
Tomorrow is my half day
I guess that is how we depart

I treasure the days we had and learnt together
I treasure the laughters we shared in the beginning
But in the end

Yes
The End

Wah lau
Buy 20 tabs of flu medicine
Very difficult meh?

My doctor prescribe me the flu medicine I wanted
Coz the flu medicine my clinic has has no effect on me
So my doctor wrote me a prescription
I headed to the pharmacy to buy
Then directed me to another branch coz they're doing stock-take
Fine
For the week, not free
Today I went to the pharmacy of another branch
Told me the pharmacy will be in at 8pm
& at that time
The current pharmacist is still at the counter
I wanted to ask if they sell or not
But before I could finish my question
The pharmacist shoo-ed me away & told me to come back at 8pm

I was so pissed off
& I said loudly
"Wanna buy medicine also so difficult. By the time can buy already dead"
The senior sales assistant looked at me with embarassment

I dont care!

I stormed out of the pharmacy
Headed to DarDar's family clinic
& bought it there

Knn

All the fuss & time wasted
How many days is my nose still running without the medicine?
I've been sick for 3 weeks
Mind you
Just getting some medical help is just so torturous

*rolls eyes*

=)

Guess what
I'm gonna take up Rescue Diver + Dive Master course
Wooohoooo~
Then I can lead groups of divers
& pursue as my 2nd part-time job
Wahahahaha
Money!

So excited

Sigh
Stupid things always happen at work when my boss is not around
I think my head is gonna roll this time

I'm gonna have my mole removed next week
Free!
By a famous plastic surgeon
Hope everything goes well

My diet plan starts now

*giggles*
*giggles again*
*giggles again & again*

I will be known as Mrs Pang in 7 months time

*rides & hide in corner*

I'd lost 3kg over this week while I'm sick
& I hope I can be sick forever
So I can lose my weight

My DarDar just slapped me on my head

=(

I weighed myself at the clinic
It made me smile
Either I'd lost more than 3kg or that the weighing machine is inaccurate

Supposedly going to have sushi dinner tomorrow night
So anticipating
Then today my colleague told me I have to attend this meeting at 530pm
WHAT THE HELL!
Then Mum said 'Saturday loh'
I said 'Cannot.. working'
'Sunday loh'
'Cannot.. Dar's uncle's birthday'
...................
I'm so busy over this weekend
Sigh
My Mum rolled her eyes as I told her my activities

My parents so good
Going Australia next week
>_<
I only go Malaysia
Back to DarDar's house

Everyone is leaving
I also wanna leave
Some posts look interesting
But cant risk to abandon my current
Not until I get my bonus

Yes yes
Like those typical bitch who grab money & run

But

Cant blame
Who doesnt die for money?

My friend is opening a position for me
But will still be working in the same current line
Which I'm already suffocating in those tedious work processes
He said I would be having more exposure and allow me to expand
Coz it's a MNC

Sounds really good
But the job title sounds not-so-high-class
& like I'd said
It's the same as what I'm doing

I dont care if I'll be promoted within months or what
The thing is
I JUST WANNA GET OUTTA THIS LINE!

I mean it's good to be given an opportunity to expand
It means that you have the potential to clench more & more knowledge and contribute efforts
Who wont be proud of?

But really
Do you think a doctor working as a receptionist will ever feel happy?
(I'm just illustrating a possible scenario.Characters are fictional)
Feeling that his/her talent and knowledge had been a waste?
Playing more with papers than with chemicals in the rest of the life?

I'm vexed

My fingers kept clicking on every hyperlink
My eyes kept scanning for the benefits
My brain kept racking for a precise decision
I'm almost dying of exhaustion

Leave? Dont leave? Leave? Dont leave?

Friend said if there's an opportunity
Grab it
When it's time to go, go
Just like
When it's time to shit, shit

Damn
I havent been shitting for the past few days
Other than that slight diahorrea I had in Batam after eating the extra hot chilli from A&W and my whole anus burnt like hell

....................

Question: If you were me, what will you do?
Answer: 1) Wait until June's bonus then leave, even without a new job
2) Just go if new job offer
3) Stay and rot until a suitable job is found


Sigh
Headache

MY GOD!
I'd totally worked my ass off & then slagged my ass off over the weekend
I donno if such hardwork & then snuggishness will damage my whole biological & psychological body or not

Sigh
Working adults are meant to be damaged in this way

Oh anyway
LOTSA UPDATES!

*****
My Hong Kong friend, Tom, came over Singapore
So great to have him around
Well of course I did all his itinerary
Find him accomodation, brought him around & told him where's nice blah blah

DarDar & I met up with him & his friend, Eric, on Thursday night for dinner
& for some sightseeing

& on Friday
Marcus & I brought them to the coelacanth seminar by Dr Tony at Sentosa
Brought back memories of our undergraduate life
& then we loiter around the island for a short while

& I abandoned them to diving in Pulau Dayang, Malaysia

I hope they enjoy the dives!

& when they're off
It's my holidays!

DarDar & I went Batam!~
It was a coincedence that his 2 other cousins were also going to Batam without knowing one another's plans

Doesnt my DarDar look cool with the wind blowing across his face standing under the sun riding on the water?All thanks to my photography skills
LOL!!!

Our resort!
As we loitered around the compound
I thought we came to Bora Bora!
Now we can lie to our friends, who dont read my blog that we went to Bora Bora
Hee

We nua-ed for a very long time since we arrived
Batam is 1 hour behind Singapore
We departed Singapore at 9am
We arrived Batam at 9am
Until afternoon
We took the shuttle bus out to Batam Centre for shopping

I guess A&W survive very well in Indonesia
All other Singaporeans who joined us in the shuttle had their lunch at A&W
Seems like we still like A&W
So why not bring it back?
Oh you know what
The chilli sauce is so hot!
DarDar said it's damn shiok
I agreed with him with tears in my eyesCup corn for only less than 50cents!
How horribly greedy am I to have 2 cups in my both hands!
If i have 10 hands, I'll probably buy 10 cups which only cost less than SGD$5!

Spending money in Indonesia rocks
Paying things in millions make you sound like a millionaire for the day
But then it's kinda brain-cracking coz you have to convert back to Singapore dollars to see if you've a good bargain
We spent RP$155275 on grocery at the supermarket
Which is only $25plus
We got items that Singapore doesnt sell
WOW!

We returned to our resort at 4pm
& went for our dinner at 7pm

DarDar chatted about fishing techniques over the dinning table
While I feast on our 7 dishes course meal munching on my flower crab's pincer
Yummy Yummy!

We then had our spa massage later at night
I think it will be my first & last spa massage
We chose the Stone Massage Aromatherapy
Where they used warm pebble to rub on the skin
I just recovered from my sunburnt
& they're rubbing hot pebble on my new skin
Ouch!
Hot instead of warm coz they also spread a layer of massage oil on the body
So the oil makes it hotter than it should be
I almost kicked the person as she rubbbed on my calf
Somemore I'm having severe running & blocked nose
The aromatherapy was damn wasted

After the massage
DarDar claimed it was damn shiok & kept thanking the person non-stop
I told him I almost died & would prefer to drown myself in the jacuzzi if we ever wanna do spa in the future again

Night fishing!
We caught half-beaks!As if

Never know half-beaks look so ugly out of water
We didnt catch any fishes though
So we went back to sleep at 2am Singapore time

We struggled to wake up at 830am for our complimentary breakfast

& back to sleep after that

After checking out
We decided to waste our time at the beach for some sun tanning before we finally depart at evening
My feet point to Riau Island
A good place to dive
But they no longer provide any diving activities already
Sad



I had fun over the Good Friday weekend!

Yipee!
I <3 my DarDar

I'm all better already
But I'm just too lazy to go to work

I dont care

It's Good Friday soon
Haha

Holidays!