Today cried several times
1 in office
1 on bus
Teary eyes
But I think those were enough

It's just a sad environment to work in now
How people can gang up & stab me right in my heart from behind
is really something very unexpected
Not that I wish to even expect before I started work
But cruel world it is

I was thinking of my days in University
I was alone too
But I felt happy coz I have Lizt
Plus the fact I have Wolfie too
Which make me almost home
Dr Williams, my best teacher being closest to me
=)
The sweet memories....

I think I prefer to be myself
Alone
Doing things I could
I was happy with the WildFilms
I do things related and make new friends

Starting to think very pessimistically

If one day I'm gone
Just like that

Let me tell you
I think I'd seen enough

Monday was the most fucked up day
I just hate it
All my colleagues are not talking to me!
When I talked to them
All ignored me
WHAT THE FUCK!

I did nothing to them
Bunch of weirdos
& worse
THey treat me like their secretary
All ask me to do things individually
When it's not even under my care!

CHAO CHEE BYE

Anyway
I bo chup
I have my plans liao
So
Be
It

I'm meeting my Ashley on Thursday
=D
Hope to see Jas & Ling too
It's been reallllllllllllll long since we met

I just got back from Woodlands Library
Went to support Ria on her free talk on the Southern Shores
It's nice to meet old friends (I always say that)
& also meeting new friends too (Yet I always say that too)

As Ria was introducing the Southern Shores to the audience
My mind keeps thinking bt how I first joined WildFilms
& in fact
I am very happy to know my friends who share the same passion
That is
Environment.Marine.Diving.Conservation

It is sad to see that I'm doing nothing related to my studies in the society
I donno if I should accuse them anymore that they dont take fresh graduates
But truth is
They really dont

Sigh

So... I sorta signed my fate
But my passion still goes on

Life is busy
When the tides are low and there's lotsa things to see on the shore
I'm busy typing thousands of words per day
Missing the whole lotsa fun & fresh air

Now
I'm trying to make myself more active in environmental conservation again!
Damn office work
*PUI*!

I cant wait to go to Hantu on 4th Feb
Hopefully DarDar can join me
He's put on waiting list

Oh yes
COntinue saving the environment
Anywhere. Anytime.

I donno if I did the right thing
Looks good
But I'm worrying

My contract renewal

I applied for alot of jobs lately
& I signed to accept my contract renewal today
Although my Boss said I'll have my gratuity payment upon completion of contract
& that since my service will be recognised
I'll also be entitled bonus

I thought it was a very good deal to me

Then my colleague came over & said
"But that time my staff XXX had her contract renewed & converted, she only got her bonus but not gratuity"

This worries me

Did I make a wrong choice?
Did my Boss lie to me?
Did I hear wrongly?

I sent an email to my Boss to re-confirm but no reply YET

It's gonna be a restless weekend

If there's a good opportunity
It'll be an issue of money & knowledge

Cant expect me to work for A when I have the qualification for B, right?
Wasted my Dad's millions of dollars

I feel bad

*************************************

After a long (chronologically) 200m run at the park behind my house
I developed rashes all over my limbs
It is so itchy & swells
Heng my face didnt kana

Consider it a good week
I escaped from work
Not that I dare risking AWOL
but I volunteered myself to attend a workshop
Which my company agrees to pay

So
Why not?

This workshop deals with Employment Act
Just wondering why the hell do I wanna get involved with laws
I actually come face to face with it every day
& being absolutely a dumbass
That's aother reason why my boss agrees to sponsor me for it

Ha!

The lecturer is a lawyer
& he taught us the Acts using his own case studies
Which is very fun & interesting

Let's quote an example
You know that it's illegal to drive 100km/hr on Singapore roads
& so when you go Malaysia
You floored the acceleration pedal like no one's business
(Un)Expectedly, you got caught by the Malaysian police
You handed them RM$50 for the so-called speeding charge
and left
When you're back in Singapore thinking everything is fine
You're so goddamn wrong because
You had commited corruption in Malaysia
You're arrested and offence was committed

Cool?

Cool

The course lasted for 2 days
So I got 2 days of 'rest' with knowledge gained
On top of that I have a Certificate of Attendence!

Double coolness!
I shall just volunteer myself more often to do such things

I went back to office yesetrday during lunch time
since it's 10mins walking distance anyway
& I tell you
The feeling back to office sucks

My colleagues were gathering together for a chat
& when they see me back
None of them even talked to me
As if I never exist
What does it say?
It says that my existence is negligible to them
With or without me is the same

That totally pissed me off when I saw loads of paper left on my table
Simple things like sending forms to destinated depts are left in my intray
Waiting for me to wait out
Just coz it's forms of staffs that I'm taking care of

I was pondering
This kinda thing is so simple
Cant they even help to send it out?
Must they really differentiate between sesame & green bean before they can lay a hand on it?
This issue lies the same when I was on 1 week leave to Hong Kong
When I returned
My outstanding things are still not solved
& existing things become outstanding
Let's just say that everything was untouched

WHAT THE FUCK
Thanks (but no thanks) for the coverage!

Still wanna tell me that they helped me when I was overloaded (which sadly they didnt, it's still outstanding 5 months later but it's their business now because they volunteer to take over from me)
& then blame me for doing a bad* job
*Bad to them because they think it's easy but in fact, they never understand/realise the magnitude of the project because it's all done by me ALONE

2 particular colleagues especially, dont even wanna blink at me
When they see me
It's like...
I am transparent!

Bah

I have better things to do
*rols eyes*

I thought it's gonna be a good day today
It was shining when I was at home
& when I was on the bus
It poured

What the hell

Today seems rushy
Coz DarDar doesnt like to walk in the rain
Well, neither do I when I dont have an umbrella
so I didnt get to see much happenings along the street

Sigh
I just cant take it anymore!
Everyone around me is as skinny as a twig
I was as skinny as a twig too
But now?
I am as fat as a cucumber

I am sad
Je suis tres triste
*sob sob*

Dardar said he'll go jogging with me
but never
I said I wanna go swimming
He said he doesnt want
I said I'm going for my dragonboat
He not happy
He said we go cycling
But my bike is dying soon
So
In the end
We rot at home eating pizza with sprite

WHAT THE FUCK!

His friend said that he looks fatter than before
Asked what did I feed him
& I replied that I'm also getting fatter than before
His friend replied
"Something must be wrong with both of you"

I believe so

I'm planning an overseas trip in the middle of the year
Either Bangkok in April, KL in July or Beijing in August
Why?
Coz there'll be dive expos held there!
Wooooooooooooo
& I hope I have enough money to invest on a dive computer by then
It's practically one of the survival dive items that one must have
& thank God I'm still surviving with none
The Mola-mola blessed me

How I love my sea creatures
>_<

I just spent 4 hours in the office
Doing whatever is do-able on my table
Basically
Nothing
BWhahaha

& then Er Ge came to fetch me for lunch
Went to Adams Road for the Selera Rasa Nasi Lemak

We nearly had three accidents today
Not that I dont trust Er Ge's driving skills
But then I think the road is really dangerous

As we were on our way to Adams Road
& while moving our way along a bend
A lorry did a wide turning & cut into ours
Er Ge ji tao braked & horned
I kana chua-tio
I was talking half way & suddenly just froze
Imagine the lorry 100x bigger
Made of hard metal
Almost touch me by an inch

*faint*

Then we went to Kaki Bukit coz Er Ge wanna change his rotor disc
& along the way on PIE
There's this huge object lying on the road
But as Er Ge is already cruising
It's just damn late to slow down
& that huge thing went underneath his car
Producing loud sound
I responded with a big 'OUCH'

Hey man
The car is gonna be damn hurt
When it gets hurt
Er Ge's wallet is gonna be hurt too

After few hours
Er Ge fetched me home
& while back on PIE
Er ge wanted to change to Lane 1
& in 3 seconds
He swerved left & right
I thought he playing game leh
& I said "Eh, Er ge... dont play on the road leh"
Then Er ge pointed at the Honda Fit that overtook us from behind as he tried to seep through the gap between our car & road shoulder
What an ass
He nearly got us hit a motorcyclist
I saw him wriggled as Er Ge swerved

SDW 3660 Honda Fit from SHC
You dont play play hor

Scary man
Now come to think bt it
I haven been driving much ever since I got my license
I guess when I hop onto my own car when I could afford it
Sure buang one
LOL!!
*touch wood*

I feel good today
COz it's Friday
& tomorrow is weekend
SHOPPING!

I just spent 4 hours in the office
Doing whatever is do-able on my table
Basically
Nothing
BWhahaha

& then Er Ge came to fetch me for lunch
Went to Adams Road for the Selera Rasa Nasi Lemak

We nearly had three accidents today
Not that I dont trust Er Ge's driving skills
But then I think the road is really dangerous

As we were on our way to Adams Road
& while moving our way along a bend
A lorry did a wide turning & cut into ours
Er Ge ji tao braked & horned
I kana chua-tio
I was talking half way & suddenly just froze
Imagine the lorry 100x bigger
Made of hard metal
Almost touch me by an inch

*faint*

Then we went to Kaki Bukit coz Er Ge wanna change his rotor disc
& along the way on PIE
There's this huge object lying on the road
But as Er Ge is already cruising
It's just damn late to slow down
& that huge thing went underneath his car
Producing loud sound
I responded with a big 'OUCH'

Hey man
The car is gonna be damn hurt
When it gets hurt
Er Ge's wallet is gonna be hurt too

After few hours
Er Ge fetched me home
& while back on PIE
Er ge wanted to change to Lane 1
& in 3 seconds
He swerved left & right
I thought he playing game leh
& I said "Eh, Er ge... dont play on the road leh"
Then Er ge pointed at the Honda Fit that overtook us from behind as he tried to seep through the gap between our car & road shoulder
What an ass
He nearly got us hit a motorcyclist
I saw him wriggled as Er Ge swerved

SDW 3660 Honda Fit from SHC
You dont play play hor

Scary man
Now come to think bt it
I haven been driving much ever since I got my license
I guess when I hop onto my own car when I could afford it
Sure buang one
LOL!!
*touch wood*

I feel good today
COz it's Friday
& tomorrow is weekend
SHOPPING!

It's been ages someone last wrote me something in Friendster
& it's so damn interesting!



My reply (forgot to save a copy in folder):

Thanks for looking up on me & telling me that man almost died. Say Thanks for me if you see the courageous civil servants of Singapore

My eyelashes are real and long that whenever it drops, it pokes my eyeball. I have to use 'Soften' to soften it everytime.

You seem to like guessing alot. Apology to let you know that I have never been mistaken as a bitch. Yes, type it out. I prefer proper English. & probably your lousy guess had made you a flop.

I should congratulate you actually. I never reply to messages in Friendster, but just because your story of that dying man attracted me, it just let my curiousity cat ran out of my bag.

I dont communicate to strangers, especially those who always mistake girls as bitch.


It feels so good to stab him right in his banana

Grrr

I wanted to buy Orh Jian for dinner
But when I alighted the bus
The rain poured
Wtf
So I changed bus to go DarDar's house
& when I'm up
The rain stopped

#&@*%#%$^@%^@$!$#^%@$!@#%*(@%^$%@

Kenneth jio-ed me go dive in Maldives
BWHAHAHAHAAHAHAH
Where got money
Tsk tsk
That rich fellow now enjoying in Dubai
Of coz la

Tsk

I'm sooo hungry
Fooooooooood

DarDar & I went to cut hair wor


=D

I smell so fruity!
Coz I just came back from shisha session

*puff puff*

Thank God the rain has finally stopped
Enough of those wet feet on my slippery heels
Just any second
I'll just glided down the gentle gradient of the sole
& waddled worse than a duck
that sounds 'cloak cloak cloak' from behind

Went JB yesterday after work
Took the Causeway Link Express
Only SG$2.40
& it only took half an hour to reach
& along the way
It kept horning at the motorcyclists in front
Reminded me of my China trip few years ago
Where the stupid driver horned all the way from Guangzhou to Pangyu
On an entire 1 hour plus trip

Traffic was heavy
& the cars were horning all the way along the causeway
DarDar wanted to walk across the bridge
First time see him so 'on'
Volunteer to walk

When we reached CitySquare
It is so barren
As if the whole mall belongs to us
Went to exchange the DVDs & then had dinner
& finally
SHOPPING!

Some of the clothings are nice
& the fashion in Malaysia looks so... hmm.. HongKong-y
I hesistated to buy
Although it does look nice
But it costs so much more than those selling in Singapore!
I saw a dress selling at RM$128
a pair of heels at RM$donno-how-much
a shirt at RM$68
Broke la
My Isetan & Robinson vouchers disallow me to use obviously
So no money loh
Plus the fact that I'd gained weight
Wearing anything is just a flop

Sigh

So went home empty-handed

.....................

I think I'm soon-to-be a regular to Malaysia
Almost every week cross the sea channel
Bwhahaha

Danny's having his Hantu dive today
Jio-ed me 2 weeks back
But I cant
Coz I'm now stuck at work on a Saturday
Oh well
It should look good too
Coz the water will be so cold & murky with rough currents due to the heavy rain
Probably nothing could be seen either
Coz most of them cant tolerate the low salinity due to high indulation of freshwater

Hey
I'm looking for a new job
Could someone help me to look out?

Nothing to do in office today
Sigh
Boring

Everyday rain & rain & rain
So wet
Cant wait for April to come
But first I must lost like 5kg 1st before I shall wear my bikini back
HAHAHAHA

What the hell

I'm missing out so many external activities like the WildFilms and Blue Waters
But DarDar is against me from going
Coz he said I always say 'no time no time'
which only applies to activities that I dont like
Man.. cant he see that?
Of coz I have lotsa time to do things I want
Heehee

It's Friday tomorrow
Yipeeeeeeeeee

Wah
So long never write anything

Last Friday
Got this stupid bee flew onto my face
Now my face swollen
knn

Then Saturday go back DarDar's house
Eat & eat & eat & eat
now very fat

Then Sunday go to work
Colleague said I put on weight
Sighhhhhhhhhh

Then Monday TUesday Wednesday
Everything in office also do finish le
Now nothing to do
Also donno how to act busy
Damn

I am one of the commitee of my company's dragonboat team
But I have a feeling that my company is not gonna renew my contract
& I'm dying to look for a new job
Help me look for lobangs, ok?
Then if suay suay
Cant take part in dragonboat liao lo

Sigh

If renew hor
I also donno can stay long or not
Coz my heart wanna go try something else
& damn it
I was trying to apply for this position
But the online application screwed up

Bleahhhhhhhhh

Aiyah
I go see doctor liao
I cant stand my ugly right cheek

My first day of work
Busy rushing to clear my stuffs
Which apparently my colleagues are not efficient enough to do the coverage
& I have to do it all by myself
With no idea what had been happening when I was away

& damn it
I just finished work
At home, fortunately
Brought home to finish
Intended to stay late to finish it
But nah...
Heard that my office is haunted
I scare scare
>_<

Cant wait for Friday to come
Haha
Coz I'll be overseas again

Luckily never agree with Danny to dive next Saturday
Kana scheduled for Saturday duty which I wasnt aware until today
But
Kenneth & I made a deal to dive in April
Hey!
I cant wait too!
=D
Just hope that my new scar heals before more & more accumulate

Somehow
A wetsuit isnt such a bad idea to protect myself
But...
Lazy lah!

Oh well
I shall now go watch TV & wait for my DarDar to come

*chu~*

Hello people
I'm backkkkkkkkkk~

Yup
Went to Macau, Hong Kong & China
Within 10 days
& I met DarDar's family there too
Coz they were there for holidays too
So somehow it was like a Meet-the-parents session

Oh geez

Sorry Lizt & Tom
Really couldnt find time to meet
Hope to see you sometime soon

Here are some pictures =)







Cheers