Few days ago

I had one of my proud moments

After 4.5 years of hardwork

I'm finally one step closer to my goal

My thesis finally returned after months of delay

& now I have to rush before a deadline just 1 month away

So I can have my convocation next year

That moment I received my theses

I was all so ready to work on it

Coz I know I am really close to the finishing line

I posted a photo of my letter

& commented that more work is to be done over the holidays

Friends were congratulating me

For making one step closer

I was thankful

Thankful for all the wishes, as well as my friends who encouraged me

A lot of flashbacks came into my mind

I saw how me & my friends worked hard

Played hard

Shared fun times

& told myself to appreciate friendship, no matter short or long

The next day

I received a call from a friend

She told me to be careful of what I post

Because my post & following comments made someone unhappy 

& I was condemned 

I was shocked

What have what I posted and my friends commented bother that someone?

Why poke into my private life and imply me of something i did not purposely do?

I was so sad

That I actually broke down during work

It was a happy & proud moment for me

Unfortunately only lasted for 1 day

I can understand why

I actually have sour grapes around me

who told twisted accounts behind my back

 

I then realised how naive I still am

Believing I have all the good friends who walk with me

But only to know

That the closest and most trusted friend screwed me & my 1-day happy moment

 I spoke to some other friends

Outside this community 

& they consoled me with their full heart

They felt for me and understand who I really am

They know I was innocent and appreciate me for being true all the time

and being me

They advised me to not look back

Move forward

Concentrate on my amendment

Prove them wrong about what they think about me

& that all of them will be supporting

Thanks

With all my heart

I took that 1-day happiness as a learning lesson in life

That no matter how old you are, thinking you will no longer have friends in life

The closest and most trusted person you know can be your enemy

My true friend told me

What doesnt kill you  make you stronger

& yes

It sure did

This kinda thing works extremely well for me

I will fight on

It's funny how I can no longer rant as much as I could in my blog like 10 years ago

Yes, I started blogging at 18

When I looked at my old blog entries

I laughed

They were so funny

Laughed at what I did

Laughed at what my friends did to me

Laughed at how funny my narrations were

Laughed at how bad my English was

These funny stocks can no loner be found in my current new blog

Not exactly new

But I ended my 'Le Monde Perdu Sans Retour' after I left the plane back Singapore

Basically

That blog described my 3 years of life in Hong Kong, & slightly some in Singapore before I left for my Uni

Blogger seems to have remove my archives, which means none can read how stupid I was

It still has my last 5 blog entries to 'hold' the blog

Abit disappointed that my memories were gone

But it's ok

Thinking back

It was just some young girl stupid rantings that probably hurt someone without senses

I hereby apologise

This 'Simple Mind, Complicated thoughts' blog is made once I reached Singapore

& I havent been a good one since  then

While social media now spreads like wild fire

There're alot of things that I have to say with care

& while my life is not so much influenced by the society

& mainly focused with traveling & diving

I guess no one probably reads about my trips since every entry will be the same

& thus I got too lazy to blog ever

 Just some random photos to illustrate

For 'a picture speaks a thousand words'

It did my job

I could probably abandon this, in time to come

But undecided

Then again, maybe I can keep this open in case I needa rant anytime

I hope there're people reading!

Hi!

Sorry

havent been blogging

Life has become abit dull lately

Other than some late night cries over some sad issues

I guess basically I'm still surviving alright

Thanks to those who showed concern to me after they read my rants in Twitter

Thanks for remembering me & asking

I'll smile more now ;)

Gorgeous sunny Friday
How about adding the 1km swim?
That's a totally perfect lifestyle!!

:)

Maybe because I'm embarking a new life

I'm seeing things very open now

At the same time

I just hope things go as I wished & planned

I just returned from Pulau Redang for my annual dive trip

Everything was fun

Love the sun, the sand & the water

i am reading this book & it is inspiring me to do a backpack trip
maybe a short one for the start
anyone's keen?

Last week was pretty busy

However, it was not of personal causes

Dardar's cousin & his family visited HK over the week

& we were tasked to take care of their dogs while they were away

These 2 poms were really playful

They jumped onto us when they see us

 & wanted to lick us so much

To satisfy their needs as a canine

I succumbed to their TLC towards humans

& let them 'have' me for 10 minutes every day

Leaving me sticky with their saliva all over my body

 

 

Over the weekend

DarDar went for his fishing trip with his friends to Tanjong Pinang, Indonesia

I was left alone to take care of the dogs

Meanwhile

I was helping my friend to do her fieldwork in the mangrove

So the dogs were pretty much on their own for the day 

Seriously

It had been a really long time that I last went out to the field

To the nature, to be precise

My outdoor research stopped last September

& i was really itching to get out to breathe some natural air

 

Nonetheless

I was glad that i was being able to help

& at the same time

Loosen myself up from the continuous mad thesis-writing

Just one more month for me to submit my first draft

Another 2 months of ding-dong-ing

& I can graduate finally!!

I cant waittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt to take a break

Before I land myself to employment where freedom is least expected

Photos of my Langkawi trip are up!

I visited Langkawi 10 years ago
This time, I'm back with DarDar
& brought him for a short trip

Things hadnt changed much, seriously
Still pretty dull as before
But this time round
We had more money
So we feasted on seafood
Which only got us overdosed with marine toxin
& suffered from food intoxication a day after we returned Singapore
LOL!!!

We had so much fun that  we were really exhausted at the end of everyday
Overall
Both of us enjoyed the trip & companion

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i want to do a tattoo

have my tibetan inked 

so it can remind me of my given talents

also to inflict pain to wake me up from crushing waves of emotions

this may sound silly

but i think my reason for getting it is more appropriate than anyone wanting to do a tattoo for fun

up on the emotional roller coaster once again

this is how i eat my medicine

Do you know how it feels to be floating on the water surface surviving from clashing waves but not knowing where to go ashore?

I am having this feeling

All the time

I just received a message from an Australian friend

She asked if I'm done with my PhD

& she is eager to read my publications

I was touched

Knowing that, actually someone is anticipating it!

But at the same time

It is disappointing because my probably 1st paper had been rejected

& I have not been getting help to properly come out with a perfect one

Although I feel proud of my research

I feel loseric because I am not able to present myself as  I should be in the real scientific society

Why do some people's manuscript get published with ease?

But I have obstacles all the time?

It really saddens me

Demoralises me

What should I really do?

Man

I'm so sick of my work now

Having doing the same thing for almost 5 years isnt as easy as one thinks

Things just get more complicated as you think more about it

Like my title says

Simple mind, complicated thoughts

Attended Pang Association Lunch (彭氏宗親會 ) in JB yesterday

A annual gathering of the people whose surname is Pang

My father-in-law is the chairman of the Association

This obviously called for an attendance within his own family!

Woke up early so we escaped the jam along causeway

Luckily i still looked not bad :p

The lunch was going to start at 2

so before that

we had a stroll at the JB premium outlets

 

Finally got the chance to look at the items in Coach & Burberry

We only made a short window-shopping walk at level 1

& got to our location for lunch

There was lion dances

& the lion was PINK!

cute la!!

The event was coupled with singing competition

& every singer sang damn well

It wasnt those chicken-slaughtering session where you had to cover your ears while feeding

so overall the event was rather enjoyable!

sigh

i am such a bitch

i slacked for 1 week

wasted my time not writing my report

i am so ashame of myself

what's more

i am gonna be away every weekend from now till march

god bless my discipline

This is the only song in my mind

I picked up a $2 just now

& i used it to buy 4D

HUAT AH!!

On our way to Malaysia...

A stupid driver wanted to overtake our bus in a one-lane road at the roundabout

But drove too slow

Got nudged at its rear by our bus

& crashed up the curb & into the signage

Hello, can you people just drive normally?

After a 4 hours ride...

We reached Sungei Besi

 

Always like the view of the Petronas Twin Tower 

When you see view like this....

It's not your fuzzy vision

It's Genting Highlands!

The lack of sleep = small eyes >_<

Mum had a smashing good time bowling!

She said she used to bowl when she was young

 

Although it was a 2D1N trip

It was quite a time  for us to bond together

But it's getting dull in Genting Highlands already

Maybe we'll go somewhere next time

Penang, maybe?

Look

I didnt lie!

Luck shone on me twice within a week!

I am soooooo happy!

Keep that coming!

& of coz

I wont be taking that for granted

I will appreciate this chance for me to getaway from work

& come back a stronger person

Thanks for everyone who is looking over me ;)

Wahahahaha

My Langkawi trip is still being negotiated with the organiser due to some hiccup

& that really dampened my mood

But guess what?

I won a 2D1N Genting Highland stay this weekend

& I'm going with my mum!

It's supposedly a trip with DarDar

but he couldnt make it this weekend

;(

Anyway

Hope this weekend is gonna be fun!

i pray that my trip still goes on & be even better

I had some emotion roller coaster recently

But thanks to J who chatted with me

I sincerely thank all those who spoke to me & told me that not all things are perfect as it seems

Sometimes

I could have just forgotten about my own self & be naive

To cheer things up

Thanks Yasminne @ Class 95 for picking my story during Lunchbreak

& I won a $100 Phiten voucher just by sharing my work experience!

Sadly, I wasnt home to hear my story being read out

But thanks M for messaging me to tell me about it ;D

Here's what you can do to join in the sharing session on Lunchbreak!

print-screened off Facebook

I am so going shopping soon!

When there're sad moments, there're always happy moment awaiting

Life is never perfect but is balanced 

Life is never fair but is compromised

Live happy!

****

Here's my story to Yasminne

You may find it uploaded here later in the week too

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~

Another short trip coming up! 

YEeah!!

I want to go

1) Bali

2) Phuket

3) Dubai

4) Hokkaido

But I am not rich anymore....

I can only go JB

sad

have to start writing again

It's time to look ahead

This year

My travel schedule is lesser than ever

Sad

I flew 7 times last year!!!

This year

I forsee it's only 2

~~~>_<~~~~

but good news about just having 2 is that

I will be travelling to a more expensive & more exotic place in 2013!

Woooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooo!

So

Good things need to wait

hahaha

my Chinese New Year has ended

woohoo!

i dont have much people to visit

so, no more visiting & depositing unneccessary fats

over the past few days

everyone's wishing 'Happy New Year' instead of 新年快樂 恭喜發財 萬事如意 身體健康

where are all these Chinese New Year's blessings?

it sounded sad that it'd sorta become just another Western new year celebration

by only hanging up red auspicious wall decor & putting up pots of freshly bloom flowers doesnt mean it is Chinese Lunar New Year without the appropiate blessings

i made myself said these

but what i got back in return is in English

the Chinese culture is gone

pretty sad

maybe i am returning HK next year for Chinese New Year to enjoy the atmosphere

the first day of CNY had come to an end

sighed relief

however, dardar fell sick

:(

i got heavier

which meant i grew fatter

wtf

i guess i will have to run really soon

despite my foot injury

i rather go lame than go fat!!

oh you know what?

i could be wrong this year

amazingly

i'm actually enjoying the new ear's eve!

maybe on the actual new year's day

it's gonna be better than i expected?

what's more

the fortune teller said that those born in the year of pig are the luckiest star among those of other zodiacs!

wow

does that really come true?

so true that i'm experiencing the 'luxky star shine' now?

i am spending my new year's eve watching the live coutdown show by MyFm crew

& omg

they are so great in celebration

they sing hippie new year songs

& they also have a cute dragon mascot to make the show really cool!!

我愛開心樂龍龍!

it's only 1 hour left entering the dragon year

everyone

happy chinese new year!

新年快樂

恭喜發財

萬事如意

身體健康

龍馬精神

快高長大

This Chinese New Year is so screwed

It just didnt happen the way it normally should

My family usually has our reunion dinner before the actual day of Chinese New Year

& on that day

We just started the dinner later than usually

It was a steamboat dinner

So it really doesnt matter how long you wish to eat for as long you want to eat

But my brother went out to celebrate with his friends

Leaving only me, Dardar, Mum & Dad

It was not so 'reunion' afterall

My Dad wishes to eat as a whole family again

But apparently

This is impossible because everyone is so busy nowadays

Particularly DarDar ever since he'd been promoted & joined the new department

Brother was stupid to overlook the importance of family to friends

Pampered  kids......

Oh whatever

The mood of Chinese New Year sucks

I am not anticipating it at all

This is because I hate to do all the visitings

& have to face every elderly's question :'so when are you gonna have a child?'

Shut up

Even if I have one, I dont want to announce

Why stick your nose into my personal affair?

Seriously

I never enjoy celebrating all festivals

It is just another day

You get high on that day

The next day

You still have to suck up to your bosses, sink into loads of shitload

So how is getting high a good event for you?

Anyway

This is just my personal opinion

Whoever read this need not agree with me

For I dont care

& I live my life

So do you

Remember my pink nail polish?

Oh man

The more I look at it

The more I fall in love with the colour

The polish is from Christian Dior

& I got that as a gift from my ex-colleague 

Now that I thought I wanna own my bottle

It actually costs a freaking SGD35!!

Wah!

The price of beauty

After 7 years

My heart still belongs here

DarDar said I snored when I slept last night
;p
He wasnt complaining
but he was glad that I had a good night sleep after that late with insomnia

Today
I woke up
with blocked nose & heated body
FLU!!!!

Thanks Friday 13th

I didnt have a good night sleep last night

My mind was filled with many thoughts

which, strangely, I couldnt remember what I thought

I did remember I dreamt

& that dreamt was a scary one, but not scary enough to be classified as a nightmare

I only knew I woke up in fear

What was I thinking?

Or was I thinking too much?

I'm on my Day 3 of the 2nd week of January

The days to thesis submission is getting nearer

But I still do not have the motivation to write

Because

The early chapters are still messy 

& I cant focus to proceed until the mess is cleared!

How I hate (x infinitely) waiting for a re-assuring email 

An email that agrees with my logical thinking

But this email is either pending or never coming

Irritating

For as much as I'd love to proceed

This is holding me 

I am unable to move forward because it is not motivating me to move on

Why is this happening?

There I am feeling confident at the same time

Thinking that

Once that shit is cleared

Everything will sail smooth & fully ahead

I dont know

Maybe it's just another naive bimbo moments