My blog skin had been this since 5 years ago

You think I should do something about it?

After a week's work

I went on a roadtrip to Port Dickson with my in-laws & family

The journey was good

I always love roadtrips

DarDar & I have been planning a one-week roadtrip from Singapore to Phuket one day

Haha

Let's see when that will be

Now

Back to reality

& clear work before Xmas holidays!

I havent been that commited in work for a very long time

For 12 hours to be exact

Somemore, it wasnt my work

It was work of my two juniors

At the end of the day

We all had done our very best

So now, it's GOOD LUCK, GIRLS!

I had also finally submitted my manuscript

Wooohoo!!

Of course I'm happy

After all the hard work

But I still have to wait for it to get past stage 1 - if it is going to be accepted into the journal

& then stage 2- reviewers

Stage 3 - accepted for publication

Final stage - publication

God bless me

& also everyone around

Because of one another, we live happily

Being too strong isnt helping

It just adds more loads on the shoulder

Making you feel heavier & heavier

Eventually

You collapse

No one around will pity you though

Because humans are selfish

Moreover, it is your life

"Who are you to care what I want to do?"

Exactly

So just let things flow

It will flow smooth itself

Everything happens for an unknown reason

Everyone meets one another by chance

This is fate

We cant control fate

What is yours is yours

No matter how nasty it looks like

This is nature

You just have to accept it even if it fails the null hypothesis

So

Just take & move

Take care & move on

duhz

a probably 1 hour editing took 1 month to reply

someone please define efficiency

ok
guess what
i think i am gettin back to blogging
i'd stopped blogging coz somehow facebook had taken over the media to rant
but apparently that doesnt work for me
because, although i'd like to rant i do not wish to have my 600 friends to read about it
somemore i dont wish others to know too much of my life

i now need to rant because i really feel bad
very very bad
i have been ranting about how my work is being held up to fellow mates
how i forsee that i am unlikely to graduate smoothly
how dark my future is
all because of someone something

but nowi think i should let their ears free
& maybe talk to myself?

i hate saying the same old things
does anyone even care about how being cheated feels?
i must strongly admit that it's nothing about my marriage, but more of career

few days ago
i was really on the verge of breaking down
kept looking at my Tibetan name that Dalai Lama gave me
kept hesitating having it inked on myself
to remind myself to lead a positive life

why i had such thoughts is coz
whenever i feel depressed
i tried to cut myself
& i did that ever

it is unhealthy
yes i know
so each time i think of cutting myself
i remind myself not to do so
but if someone can learn to be more efficient & thoughtful & care about others
i may actually feel better

maybe my life is really that bad that i just have to comply to it
i can just never get out of this shit