Hmmm...
Mum recieved a call from Hong Kong
Saying that Uncle (Mum's elder brother) is on the verge of his life
His lung cancer* cells had spreaded all the way to his brain
& he fell into coma last week
Although he'd awaken now
Doctor said his chances are slim

Mum was abit panick about the whole situation
& applied leave immediately without checking if the air tics are available
Dad was being a fuss, as usual, saying all the unreasonables out of the unexpected
Bro is always adding fuel to the fire
& I have to resolve the burning fire & explaining the optimistic possible outcome of the unexpected

So now
I tried to put everything to a temporary halt
Becuase aunt said it's not that jialat as what another aunt said
So Mum is gonna postpone her approved leave
Being that
I'd requested my dear friend to assist getting me air tic as soon as possible
I may have to accompany my Mum as well
Which I do hope it doesnt fall on the days when I have to register for my course personally

On top of everything
I've gotten my grab-bag ready

I'm now on standby mode
Awaiting for the call

*PS: I dont remember my Uncle was diagnosed with lung cancer...is it because of negligence of the doctor that no follow-up was done and apparently caused such situation that messed up everyone's mental wellness?

What is with the people today?
Every bloody asshole I met is fucking rude to me
As if I'm an idiot to be least bothered

While I was busy working at the farm
A postman came and asked me to sign on the registered mail
As I scribbled my initial
He asked:'What is your name?'
Me: [my name]
He:'You malay ah?'
Me:'Huh? Do I look like one?'
He:'Oh no no... just need your name to appear on the paper..'

Yah whatever
Because my dialect name in Malay means Faith

Then at clinic
Got this patient's mum called & demanded a MC
She:'Just now my son came to see the doctor, how come you all never give the MC?'
Me:'What's your son's name?'
She:[her son's name]
Me:'Hang on while I check....... Oh, Dr Chow didnt write the MC'
She:'What? But he said he is to be given 2 days MC'
Me:'Maybe the doctor forgot to write... will the MC be for today & tomorrow or tomorrow & the day after?'
She:'Of course tomorrow & the day after! My son went to school today!'
Me:'Ok, I go check with the doctor'

Knn
As if I know your son went to school today
& as if I wanna eat your son's MC like that

Me:'When are you to collect it? Maybe tomorrow since we're about to close?'
She:'You just ask the doctor to write & I will pick it up when I'm free. Who am I speaking too?'
Me:[my name]
She:'Sorry?'
Me: [MY NAME]
She:'Ok bye'

What the hell
I hate it when people enquire about my name over the phone when I'm trying to help them
It just means that I'm not trustworthy into my work
& I will lay shit on their face
Which, of coz, if they are smart
They can complain me right away

But hey
You're messing with the wrong lady
If I dare tell you my name
I guarantee my work is done to its best

Wanna shoot me?
I think I have much more to bombard

Anyway
I'm so irritated with people doubting me
I make sure they die bitterly if one strand of my nostril hair breaks

Just got back from Farmmart
Damn full of supper
I ordered 10 pieces of chicken wings
Thinking that the guys will eat alot
In the end
Dean only ate 1
-_-

While we were happily eating chit-chatting
Got a stray husky came to us!
I was like 'What the fuck?!'

I'd always wanted to get a husky
But the housing regulations doesnt allow
Neither will my Mum allow in the 1st place
& I like husky so much that I can go crazy over it
& then I see a STRAY husky at farmmart feeding on the chicken wing bones that I just sucked on

Double WHAT THE FUCK!

You know how beautiful a husky is or not?
You know how gorgeous a husky is or not?
& God damn it it's a STRAY?!

Dean said that it had been abandoned due to the new housing regulation
DarDar added saying that he noticed there're many husky adoptions at SPCA

I looked at the poor guy
It kept licking his leg
& I observed it...
There's a big wound at his hind thigh!
Fresh bloody wound

My heart ached
But I'm helpless

Understanding my lust for a husky but not being able to afford
Here comes a free husky that I'm unable to help

Sorry mate
I could only visit farmmart more often to feed you with chicken wing bones
The next time I will order 20 pieces

For the past few days
I am very happy to spend time with my friends
Especially Lizt whom flew over from Hong Kong to Singapore to attend my solemnization

My ROM was abit unexpected
DarDar's family was late due to jam at causeway
& so it was delayed 30mins
But all went well after that







I was really grateful that all those invited came
& I hope they love the dishes served

At night
Me, Michelle, Lizt, Jas & Ash went zouk
My 1st time to Zouk


Not bad la
But I think I still prefer MOS
I just feel that the music there sounds better
The R&B sounded abit un-rockable
The House was good but none was dancing

I took the car out for the night
& my left leg was fucking tired on the clutch
From my house to Bukit Timah, to Bugis, to Tiong Bahru, to Pioneer and back home
Bwahaha
1/2 tank gone

Anyway
Now I'm officially Mrs Pang
But I still feel the same as the same old me
Ha!

Just got back from a drinking session with friends
As it's our day on this Sat
His friends wanna sabo him
Wanting to make him drunk
& apparently
They succeeded
But DarDar was feeling too unwell that he started shivering
& his friends had to be carried up to my house

Tsk tsk tsk

Now DarDar had concussed
I hope he doesnt puke on the bed!

I AM FUCKING ANGRY!
AS I WAS PARKING THE CAR
THE CAR OPPOSITE MY SLOT ON HIS FUCKING HIGH BEAM
BLINDED ME
I CURSED & SWORE AT HIS INCONSIDERATION
DARDAR RUSHED DOWN THE CAR WANTING TO FIGHT WITH HIM
BUT HE ESCAPED

KANNINA

I COULD HAVE STOP IN FRONT OF HIS CAR
PREVENTING HIM FROM COMING OUT
LYING THAT I CANT REVERSE WITH MY EYES BLINDED
ASKED HIM TO GET OUT OF THE SLOT WITH HIS MIGHT LOH

TAMADE

IF I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT
I SURE DO THAT

I AM JUST SO FUCKING ANGRY ON A DEEPAVALI EVE
& FUCK
I LEFT MY HANDPHONE IN CLINIC

Boss gave me 2 rabbits
>_<
& I have no idea how to keep rabbits as I've been keeping hamsters since young
Looking at the rabbit makes me think it's Koko x 10000000000
It's 100000000 times bigger than my Koko
Abit scary

Luckily DarDar kept rabbit before
Haha
So he's gonna do all the grooming

Skipped work on Friday to go fishing with DarDar, Michelle & Gerald
We went to Raffles Marina at Tuas
& it was so damn beautiful!
Look at the yachts!!!
One of these will be mine one day.... in my next life

As it's around evening
The sunset was extremely pretty too

Of all the fishing sites I'd been
This place is the best

DarDar caught 3 fishes within 15mins
Usually DarDar could only catch 1 fish in 1 hour

Michelle & I went to look at soft coral that had grown along the berth
& one man came over & made friends with us
& invited us to sit on his mini speedboat that was parked at the other side
Being playful
Me & Michelle sat in it
Passed by the lighthouse where DarDar & Gerald were fishing
We waved to them frantically
They were so damn jealous we had a ride out in the sea
Heehee

We fished all the way till 10 plus
& we had about 20 fishes
Dean came later & picked those fishes for his Indian workers

Beside us was a family
Who used nets to catch fish
But they'd scared away all our fishes!!!

Oh anyway
Raffles Marina is a nice place
I must go find an Ang Moh friend who has a yacht there
Hahaha

WAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm so excited!
I'm going Brisbane, Australia in December with DarDar's family
& all expenses paid!

DarDar said it's a wedding gift from his dad
WAHAHAHAHAHA
& we'll be travelling to this farm, Sea World & Warner Brothers Movie World
WAHAHAHAHAHA

I AM ALL SO EXCITED!
I WANNA TAKE PHOTOS WITH MY SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!


DarDar just stared at me when I said I wanna sleep with Spongebob since we'll be spending a night in the theme park resort anyway

=X

I'm totally engrossed with the new PSP game that DarDar downloaded
I am not really a game guru
So I always request for 'brainless' games that I need not think too much about it
While flipping through the catalogue for such 'brainless' game
I chose Spongebob Squarepants: The Yellow Avenger
(Spongebob is already pretty brainless, so I guess the game should be as dumb)

When I started playing, I was immediately hooked
It's so fun that I refused to let DarDar play his Innocent Life

It involves lots of problem solving
But it doesnt requires much brain cells
Which is a very very plus point for me since my brains are no longer active for the past few months

But now I'm stuck in this stage that I cant go anywhere

......................

Cant find walkthrough guides too

I'm gonna finish the whole damn game within next week!
Just pray that my dark eye circles dont appear

I had 2 full day of diahorrea
& I almost died of gastric pain
I kicked DarDar to wake up in the middle of the night
But he's as dead as my dead thunder crab in the kitchen
So I gobbled my dhamotil & antacid to survive
Taught him a lesson the very next morning

I hope I get better soon!
It's been long I last feel like shit

I'm playing around with Facebook
& I found it pretty interesting
BUT
Too many things to play around with
& it's getting me confused

Did I mention that we went to Stanley's solemnization ceremony yesterday?
Geez
It took place damn fast
Within minutes
The couple is Husband & Wife

I'm so excited about mine

Hohohohohoho

Not saying that I'm dying to be Mrs Pang
But the fact that I'd never done such proud moments in front of my family ever
Needless to say in front of his family too
*gasps*

& I hope the slimming tea works!

Ouch
My feet are covered with bristle from the bristleworm!
This is hell man!
THe bristle are so fine that it can poke into the skin anywhere
& you cant take it out coz it's so fine & transparent

I'm limping as I walked!
Somemore I had to attend my friend's solemnization just now
JUST IMAGINE....

Sigh

I drove Dean's wife & kids back home first
& left DarDar behind to play with his friends
& now
DarDar is dead drunk
Now sleeping beside me smelling like Martell

Gosh
It's only 2 more weeks to mine
& I'm still feeling fucking fattttttttttttttttttt

Sigh....
I wish I'm gone again

Recieved my supposedly-good news from NIE
Hesitating the offer due to financial problem

Scholarship not granted
Sigh

I just wanted to try my luck if I could even take up MSc in the 1st place
& so I did
Then I wasnt granted the scholarship
Parents told me to continue studying since I'm able to get in
But I lack of confidence, wondering if I could do it
I donno if I can get the job I want when I graduated AGAIN
Will it be a waste of time, money & effort?

I am very lost

DarDar said his dad could possible help me
But 10K per year is a huge sum! (if I'd calculated that correctly)
I donno how many cycles of reincarnation would it be to repay everyone's kindness

I really donno if I should accept or reject
Accept: for the sake of working in my related fields overseas, where mini job requirement is a MSc
Reject: for the fear that I wont find my desired job again, wasting everyone's time, money & effort and fearing of forced withdrawal due to lousy performance

When fear overwhelms confidence
I'm just a piece of shit

Pictorial summary of my 9 days cast-away in Phuket
=D
Made friends with a group of Vietnameses too!

Enjoy




















Happy moments always end at pub...

Will be back at Phuket sometimes soon!

I'm back!!!!
9 days of no-internet usage & pure island exploration
COOL!

I'm going back soon one day
& explore the other side

I bet main Thailand i.e Bangkok is probably the same
So maybe no needa go so many times
=p

We made friends with a bunch of Vietnamnese
Got to know them when we were bargaining for our items
& day passed
We chatted with one another
& then on the last night before our departure
They brought us to Tiger Disco & have fun
Played fireworks & drank
Way cool!!!!

Dives at Phi Phi Island were fabulous
I saw leopard shark twice!!
& also a giant moray eel that freaked DarDar out
LOL!!!!

Loads of pictures to be uploaded
But meanwhile
I still needa catch sleep

*yawnz*

I'm going to Phuket!
In just 2 more days

Finally I'm out of Singapore
To a place for relaxation
Free my mind from all the stupid nonsensical issues
& be back with a clear piece of mind

=D

I just met Kenneth to borrow his dive computer
It cost SGD$1000!
What the fuck
Must really take care
So scare I spoil it man...
Anyway I'd also wanna learn how to use it
Might probably get a second-hand one when I have money

Ah
Friends are booking for January's Similan Live-Onboard Dive trips already!
I dont even know how my future looks like in 4 months time
Let alone to even see if my bank is still surviving

Speaking of which
I think I'd forgotten to bank in my cheque
Heehee

Alrighty
See you guys next next week
=)

Yesterday was requested to do maintenance check for all the water systems
Total 21 systems
Do until headache
Coz have to collect 3 samples of 5ml water from each system
To test for KH, pH and NO2

For one particular tank
Its NO2 level was 0.5mg/l
The level is indicated by showing how 'pink' the solution is after mixing with reagents
& by stating the result
Boss questioned his doubt

"Show me how you do the test?"
"Like this like that loh"
"Ok.. I just wanna see if it's procedure error or something's wrong with the test kit.. You see, I just tested and it indicated 0.2mg/l"

I looked at his testtube
"Hmm.. it looked like it's between 0.2mg/l & 0.5mg/l"
"Maybe it's the environmental conditions that could have affect the reading. As far as I know, the water had just been changed, so 0.5mg/l is very unlikely..."
I looked at the testtube again
"Eh? Now it looks darker... 0.5mg/l wor"
"Like I said, maybe it's the heat that affect..."
"Maybe loh.. yesterday was quite hot also.. but anyway, the standard level is 0.1mg/l, so it doesnt really matter if it's 0.2mg/l or 0.5mg/l, you still have to do something about it.."

Boss kept quiet
Then his phone rang

I escaped from his inquiries

I thought for a long while
I was very troubled by the readings I had gotten
It seems to me that he didnt believe me at all
Insisted that he's correct

O_o

I told my colleagues
They explained to me & asked me to show Boss the instruction of using the NO2 kit
Instructions say:'Wait for 3 to 5 minutes for results'
I was like "Hey! I'm correct loh!'
Colleague told me just dump that instructions in front of his face
& said that he always insists his way

Oh well
At least for me I know I wasnt wrong
But hard to clarify my 'wrong' due to his insistence

Bleah

Nevermind
Next week I will show him again

I just got back from my hair show
Aiyo.. the make up was so thick!
I got a shock when I removed it
All my cotton pads were orange due to the foundation
Me during my hair preparation
I waited for 2 hours before it's my turn out on the stage
& my contact len dropped once I was out
& i was like 'Oh shit'
But I just pretended nothing happened...

There's a professional model out with us
Her poses were really nice
Sigh
I felt so =(
Getting fat & feeling so inferior
I believe I didnt do so well due to low self-esteem

Anyway
My hair was done
& lotsa photoshoots by professional cameraman

My hair is cut slanted
So one side is shorter than another
=)


Nice mah?

I'm surprised I looked good with smokey eyes makeup
But in close contact
The smokey effect is really scary
However it was a good experience
& now I know what makeup to miss
Heehee

Recently
I feel that I've been treating DarDar abit bad
& I could sense that he isnt feeling good about it too

Everytime I tease him with all the things that should be done that he did
& he'll just looked at me with a -_- face
I tickled him to make him laugh

Maybe
I'm doing it the wrong way
Probably his heart is bleeding
But the artificial laughter covers it

Recently
He's into some kinda trouble
That may cause attendance in court

He isnt doing anything coz he repeated he donno how to do it
while I didnt know how to do it sought ways to do it

View this
Our characters are totally different

Having desperately to help him
I called my friends, SMSed my friends, Msned my friends to find out how
But he was sitting beside me looking at me doing it

I felt abit pissed
coz I'm taking my effort to solve a problem that does not belong to me

I understand that even if he's not my husband-to-be
I would also do it for a simple friend
However
The fact is he is my husband-to-be
He should solve the matter himself then letting the wife-to-be worried

Not saying that he should hide all matters to least make me worry
But share it so I can provide my thinking cap
Since I always have lotsa solutions even as to how to kill an ant effectively

Saying so
Could I have been way too superior controlling him of his way of living?
Or could it just be him that couldnt be slightly changed?

I wondered
If we might end up arguing every day after the rings had been placed on our fingers
Are there gonna be more hidden problems to least make me worried but gained scoldings from me?

I love my DarDar
His love to me is protective
Maybe it's also time for me to protect his protective love